Diary for 1998


The following Diary entries were posted on June 21st 2006.

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Holy Communion January 4, 1998

 

Rejoice, my beloved, and focus on the New Song.  I will perform all the orchestration and the choreography.  Peace and joy of Heaven be with you.  Enter into the spirit and the chamber of celebration.

 

Before the Service began I had awareness of John Lennon, and he has been here throughout.

I love you, beloved Jesus, Master and friend.

 

This is a time of unsettlement in your life and Earth affairs, my son, but I reassure you, you have committed all to me and all is within my control.  Be strong and absolute, unswerving in your one-pointed commitment to me and trust in my power to outwork and transform all matters for righteous and joyous fulfilment.  Continue, undoubting, in your daily endeavours; let not any perception of setback deter you from or in your commitment and activities for the Kingdom.

You have been led to this place; you are under my guidance and protection in all matters in your life because this is your desire.  Outworking shall be by circumstances beyond your control, although by your desire for the Kingdom and Truth and your commitment to me; this shall be my affirmation to you of my control in your life.  By your conscious acceptance of this principle all shall be more stress-free in your life and your mind.  I will never abandon you and will never let you down.  All is well.

Rejoice, my beloved, and focus on the new song.  I will perform all the orchestration and the choreography.  Peace and joy of Heaven be with you.  Enter into the spirit and the chamber of celebration.

 

I love you, blessed Lord; I rejoice in you. 

 


 

Holy Communion January 11, 1998

 

Have no concern for being tongue tied; rather allow the sincerity of your heart to radiate outward through beyond the words. 

 

John Lennon has gone forward into the Light today!  Praise God.  He stepped out of his old self, like an outer costume and it fell away, lifeless and disintegrated.  BJ has been helping him to go forward, full of Christ commitment.

Beloved Lord, I give thanks to you for all the wondrous joy of this, our life in you.

 

My friend, it is as your friend and mine, the Rector, says: Have no concern for being tongue tied; rather allow the sincerity of your heart to radiate outward through beyond the words.  Thus shall seekers, who are attracted by the soul conditions created by your desire, continue to be drawn to you by the Holy Breath.

All who are operating according to desire for the rightness of Gods Love and Law are one with Him, even though this will be to greater or lesser extent commensurate with his or her place of individual attunement.  And the object of the prayer and commitment of such a seeker shall be re-united with their Father by that act of prayerful presentation.  This is the meaning of the Trinity the triangle of oneness.  It is a complete, secure, unbreachable unit.  Think on this and allow your heart and mind to assimilate its meaning.  Accept into your soul the Truth of this image, so that its reality may take root and grow in you.  This shall strengthen your prayerfulness in presenting even the most remote wanderer in the wilderness and create a link, a pathway back to Papa.  None is beyond His reach.  Your faith can not only make you whole but can make them whole also.

 

I love you Lord, I rejoice in your Living Word.

 

Amen.

 


  

Holy Communion January 18, 1998

 

…you have joined yourself to me and I am growing in you, my branches, much fruit because you are mine and because it is your desire. 

 

The Master knelt right beside Steve as he made his dedication, shoulder to shoulder.  The wine was fizzy at the offering.  

The Master said that although the grapes the fruit are in the branches us we do not need to strive to know how to grow it, for he is growing the fruit in us and it is his purpose.  He is doing it all for us.

Beloved Lord, this seems to be such a big area of ungraspability for us, as if there is a huge, mountainous barrier between this reality and our ability to let go of the we have to do it all consciousness.

 

This is the enemys work my son; if it is not of God, your loving eternal Father, it is of the enemy.  But, I counsel you, do not be concerned about that because the enemy has already been defeated at my chastisement and all who willingly place themselves branches in me, the vine come within the actuality of that Truth.  It will happen; it is being accomplished in the lives of all such in spite of the lie of Satan still echoing in the minds of my little ones. 

It is not real in the hearts, souls, eternal spirit of such because I have removed it, washed it away.  It is of the Life Force, not of the ego-mind or understanding.  It has become placed in the heart and soul, and grows outwards from there, into all other parts of the being, eventually permeating the mind so that the lie evaporates from there also. 

So it is, like growing a baby, not dependent upon the perception of the mind, and the mind has no influence, no control in the matter.  So is it with spiritual fruit you have joined yourself to me and I am growing in you, my branches, much fruit because you are mine and because it is your desire.  Peace and grace and joy eternal be with you my beloveds.  All is well.  Have no fear.

 


  

Holy Communion January 25, 1998

 

Be patient, be faithful, be trusting.  I will not let you down.  It is my desire that you, my beloveds shall be whole. 

 

Master, the awareness comes, by your Light, one step at a time, into our hearts, minds, souls.

 

Again I say to you, my son, Ask and you shall receive, Seek and you shall find, Knock and it shall be opened unto you.  You, each of my beloveds and my little ones, must travel the path by your own unfolding, growing desire for Truth.  I cannot take the steps for you.  Your seeking is the step.  It must be taken in absolute, blind faith, trust and obedience.  I will not leave you or forsake you.  I travel every step with you.  I shall place under your feet the sure and certain, unfailing path. 

In the same way as it is Papas Law not to try to gather more of His life-giving manna than you need for each day, so do not try to take more than one step at a time or to see the path stretched out before you, for it is not there.  It unfolds at your feet.  It grows by Papas Life and husbanding in response to your desire, your outreaching to Him and by your FTOC.  I am the Way, the path, the sure foundation by which you come to Papa, and by this you shall neither stumble nor fall.  Be patient, be faithful, be trusting.  I will not let you down.  It is my desire that you, my beloveds shall be whole.  So shall it be according to your steadfastness and one-pointedness for the glory of God and the furtherance of His Kingdom.

 


The following Diary entries were posted on September 6th 2006.

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Holy Communion February 1, 1998

 

My son, it is necessary that you respond  to the drawing power of Papa's creative, fulfilling forces Light, Love, Peace, Joy without anxiously striving. In you, as with all who Love me and Love Papa, His drawing manifests as desire.  

 

At the partaking I was aware of the Master in the midst of the altar, coming into my presence, to sup with me and me with him.  He offered me the bread and wine in characteristic manner of lovingly attending his beloveds.

Lord, I love you and am eager all too often anxious that my life be in harmony with your purposes in me in us.

 

My son, it is necessary that you respond  the drawing power of Papa's creative, fulfilling forces Light, Love, Peace, Joy without anxiously striving.  You, all His children, have in common with all His creation the inbuilt facility for thusly responding.  In you, as with all who Love me and Love Papa, His drawing manifests as desire.  How well you know this, my son.  Let it be central to your life’s operation.

 

Your eagerness is a positive attribute, but let it not become so cumbersome that you stumble over it.  All is within Papa’s control, and the unfoldment from your own within of your own birth vision, your own fulfilment, shall be by His control.  Give thanks for this, my son, for otherwise all, including your own life endeavours, would be in chaos.  All must be according to the season of readiness.

 

I assure you that many joyous wonders await, and it is Papa’s good pleasure to freely give to you and your beloved, as to all who truly seek after Him and earnestly desire His Kingdom of peace and joy. 

 

Is it good to receive the gift of Love before the appointed day?  I counsel you, await, with eager anticipation, the hour when He shall restore you and put His Glory upon you.  Meanwhile occupy according as circumstances permit and have no anxiety to labour over much for the meat that perishes.

 

I am your Lord and I am your friend.  So be it.

 


 

Holy Communion February 15, 1998

 

…by your submission to my leadership and willingness to be led shall many joyous acts be accomplished.

 

Beloved Lord, two things are in my mind at present; first, that absolute Faith, Trust, Obedience to our inner calling and Commitment to that calling (FTOC) are necessary for you to be able to fulfil our hearts desire and your purposes in us.  Second, that it certainly is not we who can or will accomplish the fulfilment, for we are unable of our own Earth-mind will to do it.  We do not have the knowledge or the power. 

 

My son, without complete co-operation, willingness to be fully and totally part of the team, perfect co-ordination is not possible.  Can trapeze artists perform such intricate acts of co-ordination without operating according to this principle, without abandoning personal ambition for the common good?  Such co-operation requires leadership to provide the necessary signals for perfect unison of action and desire.  And by your submission to my leadership and willingness to be led shall many joyous acts be accomplished.

The power, which is Papas Spirit, the Living, universal, eternal Truth of Life, can and will, by this submission and coordination, be channelled in and through you, so that it is not by your will but by your attunement with Universal Will that all your potential shall be fulfilled in you, according to your hearts desire.  Having placed your life in my care, there is no cause for anxiety or uncertainty only for FTOC, even as I so lived and live.  Be assured that all is according to arrangements agreed aforetime.  Your conscious co-operation enables the plans to proceed and to succeed.  All is well.  Allow Papa, the Good Husbandman, to grow the crop and it shall be a bounteous harvest indeed.

 


 

February 1998

 

For many years the words of Isaiah (53:1) "Who has believed our report?  And to whom has the arm of the Lord been revealed?"  have been in my mind.  The Lord has revealed so many of Heavens joys and wonders to us, but at this time of writing, the children of the mammon of consciousness are absolutely resolute in their determination not to hear of our wondrous experiences.  However during the last week or two I awoke in the night and was aware of circumstances in which I was speaking with such resolute unbelievers, and was conscious of the loved ones (mother, father, spouse, offspring, close friends etc) of such, in the Heaven world, who were making themselves known by some incontrovertible indication (a phrase, an item of jewellery, a name or nickname, a symbol etc) which I could not possibly have known by any other source or means.  The loved one in Spirit was then saying to the unbeliever, “Where is your life going without the Lord Jesus in it?” or words to that effect.  This would prove to the unbeliever that survival was absolute, and that their loved one in Spirit was not only communicating but calling to their attention (1) the directionless, unfulfilling, dissolute, wasted nature of their lives and (2) How all that could only be turned around by commitment to the reality of the Lords life-transforming guidance, leadership, help and Love. Alleluia!!!

  


 

Holy Communion February 22, 1998

 

Let the Love of the Holy One for His little ones, however close yet however far they might feel from Him, be in your heart.  There, but for His Grace, His power, His redeeming of your life, go you.

 

Beloved Lord, I pray that the experience of passing the message of departed loved ones, “Where is your life going without the Lord Jesus?”  may be borne of your wisdom, guiding and Love, so that it may be thus empowered for success in winning the souls of many hard-hearted, stiff-necked, faithless and perverse souls of this generation, and that if it is not by your power and authority but instead, of my own self-will or worse, the devices of the enemy, that it may very quickly fade away from my memory.

 

My son, I do reassure you that there are many, many blueprints in the Kingdom portmanteau, and that this experience is but one.  Nevertheless, the stiff-necked need a jolt to loosen up their breadth of vision and understanding, and such a device is just so designed.  As with all plans, principles and mechanisms, let it operate only within the encompassment of Love.  Let the Love of the Holy One for His little ones, however close yet however far they might feel from Him, be in your heart.  There, but for His Grace, His power, His redeeming of your life, go you.

Only within the scope of such absolute commitment to His Love in your heart and in all your motivation, can any such device be eternally serviceable to His eternal purposes.  Outwith such commitment it becomes a tool of subversion and distortion of Truth in the hands of the prince of time and place.

Hold fast to the goal of your vision so that perspectives in-between do not lead you astray.  I will never leave you nor forsake you.  My programme goes forward apace.  Do thou remain steadfast in thy one-pointedness, that double-vision does not intervene.  All is well; peace and joy of eternity be with you now and always.

 


 

Holy Communion March 1, 1998

 

The prince of time and place does not readily relinquish that to which he desires title, but in reality you are not his but Papas. 

 

Beloved Lord Jesus, I feel as if our forward progress is very real; that we are now at a stage where we have never been before; that part of me is uplifted to the Holy of Holies, one with you and Papa and that your empowerment is very close at hand; that more and more the attunement with you takes place.  Yet I feel that another part of me is still resisting this and holding me back from complete oneness with you.

 

My son, this is the correct nature of your present conditions and state of progress.  Yet, this is very good news, for the higher desire begins to emerge, to break free from the lower.  Have no concern that you feel held back by the lower.  It is a normal, expected part of the process.  It is just like a butterfly emerging from its chrysalis.  It does appear to be holding it back.  But the desire of the butterfly to emerge, break free and fly into the sunshine drives it onward in its struggle to separate itself from its old, confusing, constricting conditions.  So let it be in your desire my son.  Let the higher be your motivating, focusing commitment.  That which is so at one level of Papas laws of creation is also true at many other levels. 

The prince of time and place does not readily relinquish that to which he desires title but in reality you are not his but Papas.  This is true of all my little ones, for whom I came to shine the Light, so that all who desire to emerge from dark, constricting confinement may soar to the heights of Heaven and be, rejoicing, where they belong eternally in glorious, endless oneness in Papa, even as I have so been and now am.  This is my desire for all His little ones, my son.  Let it be yours also, to His Glory and your crown of fulfilment.  Even when you may feel no progress is being made and you are not able to break free, rest in me and I will strengthen and restore you for the next attempt.  So shall progress one step at a time bring the inevitable result.

 


The following Diary entries were posted on December 6th 2006.

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Holy Communion March 8, 1998

 

Remain close to me; let not your eyes be diverted by the events of the Earth, even those who claim me as their Lord but do not follow my ways, for their fruit is bitter and misshapen.

 

Beloved Lord, we are both feeling a bit wobbly at present as so many things we feel must be about to happen seem remote and blocked and the world so unready, unwilling or unable to receive the wonderful things you have given to us that we so long to give freely to your little ones.

 

My son, let not the enemy bring about in you introversion of perspective.  I counsel you, trust in me and pray for the Kingdom, for the saving and transforming Grace of Gods living spirit to be outpoured upon the face of the Earth, that all who are in need, sorrow, sickness and any adversity may be awakened to its reality.  Pray that it may bring to all Papas lost sheep hope, succour, nourishment for their starving souls, drink for their parched lips.  When the enemy prowls close by and batters at your door, take refuge in the Most Holy Place with Papa and me. Keep your focus on Us. Do not let the focus drop onto the perceived inadequacies of your outer circumstances, for through such gaps the enemy can slither.

 Do not allow its wiles to trick you into comparing yourselves with others.  That which I am outworking and performing with you is uniquely for you, as with all, according to your potential.

Even thistles have beautiful, purple flowers.  Look for the good, the opportunities in each and every soul and circumstance.

Remain close to me; let not your eyes be diverted by the events of the Earth, even those who claim me as their Lord but do not follow my ways, for their fruit is bitter and misshapen.  That which I am performing in your lives is according to your faith, trust and obedience.  All is well.  I have overcome the world.

  


 

Holy Communion March 15, 1998

 

I am the Anointed One; I am the head of the body.  But you are my parts, through whom these purposes and these desires shall be accomplished.  The head has no power without the rest of the body through which to function.

 

As we read from Daily Light how by his stripes we are healed and how he was lashed for us, the impact bringing us to tears, the Master stood in the midst, loving and smiling and said, “Rejoice!”  When I asked him how we could rejoice at this he said, “Because I have saved you from this.”

Beloved Lord, I do rejoice and I do give thanks for all that you have done for us and so many others.  If nothing more than what we’re doing now unfolds, this will have been a great and fulfilling experience.  And yet, Master I believe you are able to bring to pass much more in these great and exciting times, in the lives of those who love you.

 

My son, truly it is I who will accomplish in the lives of all who love me and give their lives to my great God-mission because Papa has empowered me accordingly.  I am the Anointed One; I am the head of the body.  But you are my parts, through whom these purposes and these desires shall be accomplished.  The head has no power without the rest of the body through which to function.  And more can be accomplished if the rest of the body does not rebel against the head but rather, co-operates gladly and follows the lead and the direction. 

I do assure you, my beloveds, that the glimpses of Papas power to transform, such as with your grandson* and with your little dog, to cite but 2, are but glimpses.  By your faith, continuing, as always in this way, wonders beyond your imagining shall emerge.  It is joy to me that you have come to this place of willing accordance so that many acts of transformation can be performed, in the lives of countless little ones and in your own.  I do counsel you, leave all matters to me; there is a plan, there is a direction.  It is all according to this that your lives will progress and the path shall unfold consequently at your feet.  Relax and enjoy the journey for I will not let you down.  You are ever in my care, protection and guidance.  All is well.

 

* This refers to the miraculous healing of our grandson’s hole in the heart Theresa has written about this, below and our dog’s healing from a slipped disc (see SYFK Part Two, Vignette 4)

Our grandson was born ten weeks early, weighing 1.2 Kgs (2lbs. 10oz).  When he was two weeks old, I was away for the week at the Christian healing centre.  Before going in to dinner on the Monday night I telephoned my daughter to see how she and the baby were.  She told me that that morning the doctors had found a hole in the baby’s heart.  Nothing would be able to be done for some time as he was so very tiny. 

 

On Wednesday morning the visitors and prayer ministry team at the Healing Centre met in the large drawing room of the house for worship and prayer time, led by Hugh, the Centre’s warden.  I sat on a sofa in front of one of the windows and Hilary, the warden’s wife, was on the window seat just behind me.  At the appropriate moment I mentioned the situation at home and Hugh began to pray.  I was aware of Hilary quietly praying behind me and then suddenly, in her lovely, bubbly, excited way, she said that she had seen the most beautiful picture: Jesus reached his hand into the baby’s chest and drew all the edges of the hole together with his fingertips.  I remember little else of the morning as I was suffused with emotion and flooded with tears.

 

Wednesday afternoons at the Centre were devoted to quiet time and meditation, in preparation for the public healing Service that evening.  Again we met in the drawing room, and after a short prayer time, we were given a list of scripture verses, based on a particular theme, and then took ourselves off to wherever we chose to be to read and study the verses and wait on the Holy Spirit. After an hour or so we met up again to share (or not) whatever the Holy Spirit had for us.  One of the prayer ministry team workers, Keith, drew me to one side.  He asked if I would go to him that evening at the prayer ministry time, because during his quiet time he had been strongly impressed that the Holy Spirit wanted to anoint me to be an intermediary for my grandson’s healing.

 

Before going in for the start of the Service I telephoned my daughter (the first time we had spoken since Monday).  She said the doctors had told her that the heart sounds were a little softer today.  We were all elated but little knew that the softer sounds actually meant that the hole was bigger! At the appropriate moment I went to Keith.  I have no recollection of what was said, but when he made the sign of the cross on my forehead with the warm anointing oil, the deepest, most profound peace flooded my whole being.

 

On Friday morning we all went over to the church for the Communion Service, during which there is also prayer ministry.  Back at the house after the Service I met an elderly lady whom I had never seen before. It transpired that this lady had been on the ministry team at another healing centre in Kent. She told me that when she went into the church in Kent for the public Services she would always know if there were any children brought there for healing, because she would see angels standing behind the altar rail, one for each child.  She then said that she was a little perplexed today, as when she went into the church she had seen an angel and yet there were no children at the Service. She had seen the angel standing beside me and that ‘He had his hand on your shoulder’.

 

My daughter told me later that day, that that morning, around 11:00 to 11:30’ish (when we were in the middle of the ministry time!), the doctors were examining the baby over and over – they couldn’t find the hole in his heart anymore!!  Now approaching 11, he is as strong and energetic as any boy his age, with no health problems, and is an enthusiastic gymnast.


 

Holy Communion March 29, 1998

 

I counsel you, do not let your watchfulness become complacent, for many events are in progress for the unifying of Earth with Heaven.  Do you wish to miss one of them?  Now is the time for much rejoicing and celebration.

 

At the offering Pop (my dad, who laid aside his body in November 1997) threw himself on my neck and thanked me for our prayers for him over the years, which he said had helped him, he now realised, to go forward and be freed from many of enemys shackles.

Master, this is my strong desire for all your little ones, that we may, by faithful and one-pointed following of your lead and by meaningful prayers, help many, many souls to be freed from enemy clutches and reach out to you.

 

My son, this is all part of the plan.  Rejoice and have no trepidation.  It is not dependent upon your understanding and your organisational skills but upon your hearts desire and your commitment to me.  All else is well within my care and my power to bring to fulfilment, for all power and authority have been given to me over Earth and in Heaven to establish perfect operation of eternal Truth and wisdom and righteousness in all the realms of the little ones of Earth. 

This has no dependence on the co-operation of Earthly kingdoms and rulers.  For, if their rule is not of God authority, it shall simply fall away, and new authority under God shall be raised up in its place and the Power of Spirit shall be upon those who, according to their faithfulness, shall be chosen to preside over many cities in my name.

I counsel you, do not let your watchfulness become complacent, for many events are in progress for the unifying of Earth with Heaven.  Do you wish to miss one of them?  Now is the time for much rejoicing and celebration.  Have no concern for how, when or where to share the tasty morsels from the banquet table with those who chance by on some mission of my calling.  Leave all arrangements within my care.  All is well.

 


 

Holy Communion Easter Day April 12, 1998

 

Blessing-prayer is all-powerful, able to cause the weak and the lowly of spirit, the disenfranchised and the outcast to endure, to prevail, to be raised up, even when the opposing forces seem to be invincible. 

 

During the offering I suddenly felt as if our prayers had or rather the Lord had, with the help of our desire, prayers and commitment lifted the strong, contrary, negative psychic level of consciousness-permeating conditions since the arrival of our deeply disturbed house guest, ‘M.’

Master, my prayer is still for your outworking of the karmic entanglements and that all endeavours by the enemy to foil this desire of your plan for transforming them may be thwarted.

 

My son, although matters at the Earth-life level of perception may have appeared bleak, that the enemy was in control, it is as you now observe and experience: that by your earnest desire and prayers, the contrary conditions are expired and my peace re-established.  May this be for you a graphic demonstration of the Power of sincere, selfless prayer and giving. 

 The enemy would have you believe that it is not so, that such is not real, mere fancy.  I say to you, blessing prayer is all-powerful, able to cause the weak and the lowly of spirit, the disenfranchised and the outcast to endure, to prevail, to be raised up, even when the opposing forces seem to be invincible.  It is as the delicate young shoots piercing concrete. It is the Power of Papa: unconditional Love, by which His living Spirit transforms from the old order to the New Order. All that is desired of you is your one-pointed commitment, your faith, trust and obedience.  He will perform all that is needful.  The power of the enemy – fear – is thus dispelled, for it has no power in the realms of eternal Spirit. 

Leave all matters in my care with the Love and blessing of your heart for Papa’s good Will to be done, believing.  It is His good pleasure to accomplish it for all His children who humbly ask, trusting.

Go in peace and renewal of life.  You have seen His power to transform before.  Only believe and you shall see it again. 

 


The following Diary entries were posted on March 7th 2007.

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Holy Communion April 19, 1998

 

The leaven of Heaven works from the within out, transforming every molecule by radical attraction.  This is the small detail causing the changes in the outworking of the large.

 

Beloved Lord and Master, thank you for being in the midst of these circumstances with M.* and all that is in the process of being transformed at present.

 

My son, all things are for the going forward of all my children and my little ones at this time.  This is for your growing in FTOC and for her releasing into the freedom of the Kingdom, by the breaking of shackles and bonds to the downward spiral of the enemys control.

Leave all details to me and pray, commit and bless (PCB).  You are not yet in the position of being able to see causes, effects and outworkings.  Your desire for Truth and righteousness and Love and peace are serviceable.  The leaven of Heaven works from the within out, transforming all by radical attraction.  This is the small detail causing the changes in the outworking of the large.  This is the Life of Papa, which is in all His creation and which goes forward, ever-becoming, until the whole is leavened and perfected, whereunto He spoke His word.

Have no concern that you do not see the complete picture.  Rather, rejoice that a detail here and a detail there is revealed to you, so that each fragment may be etched into your soul awareness.  Thus, when the details all become joined up into the overall picture, every part of it will be intimately known to you.  If it were otherwise, no detail would be retained intact and all would disintegrate before you.  Every detail, every fragment is part of the whole.  Only by full and careful assimilation of each part can the wholeness of eternity be yours.  This is the free gift of your Heavenly Papa and I am the messenger of the gift. 

Rejoice, all is well.

 

*See Diary entry dated April 12th 1998.

 


  

Holy Communion May 10, 1998

 

The Good Husbandman puts His Life into all His creation - His little ones - through His spoken Word, which is the Holy Breath, the Spirit of Truth.  This Holy Breath breathes Life Eternal into the nostrils of all unto whom Papa sends it and are willing to receive it.

 

Beloved Lord and Master, so many new awarenesses are coming in about your great God-mission that I do not have any ability to grasp them and put them into words, especially on paper.

 

My son, have no concern about this.  You believe in God, believe also in me and be faithful, as you have been, in that in which I have led you. This is all I require of you, for truly do you observe that the branch is the bearer of the fruit but it comes through the vine from the Good Husbandman. The Good Husbandman puts His Life into all His creation - His little ones - through His spoken Word, which is the Holy Breath, the Spirit of Truth.  This Holy Breath breathes Life Eternal into the nostrils of all unto whom Papa sends it and are willing to receive it.   

This Life Eternal includes awareness of the eternal realities and recollection of all things that have been experienced, heard and spoken. The whole treasure-house of eternity is opened up for free access to all by their faithfulness, commitment, trust, obedience and have held fast to that which was freely given to them. This storehouse shall provide all that you and anyone could ever need for giving to the needy, dispelling darkness and fulfilling all the highest desires of the hearts who love Him. 

You need do nothing my son, for all is according to the Great Rescue Programme, which is outworking.  This has been working in your own life since conception and you are following it because the desire of your heart is strong.  All is well and shall be fulfilled.  Rejoice, for the Kingdom is eternal, infallible and unstoppable.  Peace be with you always.  I will never forsake you nor leave you.

 


  

Holy Communion May 17, 1998

 

Papa is drawing you into the Most Holy Place in response to your strong desire.  From this Place goes out all Power for fulfilment.

 

Beloved Lord and Master, you have led me every step during this, my earthly life.  You have lovingly and patiently taught me of the mysteries.  Now, after you have brought me to this place, where I have such a greater understanding of Papas Truth, each and every bit of which I have so greatly desired to share with my fellows, I see ignorance and error and wrong decisions being made wherever I look.  Yet who will believe me?  They didnt believe you in spite of all your miracles!

 

My son, you are being allowed to experience this bewilderment as a necessary part of your education and preparation for that for which you came back into the Earth-life: To be my harbinger.  It is not necessary at this stage of your preparation to understand how and when this will be enabled.  This shall all be by empowerment by the Breath*.  As you well now know, all that is required of you is desire, commitment, faith, trust and obedience.  All the outworking is beyond your remit.

I counsel you, observe, ponder, commit, pray.  Papa is drawing you into the Most Holy Place in response to your strong desire.  From this Place goes out all Power for fulfilment.  You are, as ever, endeavouring to see and understand how your lifes work for the Kingdom shall be accomplished, but not all details have yet been revealed to your awareness.  How can the picture be seen when the pieces of the jigsaw have not yet been fitted together?  And I counsel you also, that teamwork is another key ingredient.  There are those in the Earth-life and in Spirit, many of whom you are not yet aware, who will join with you.  You do not have to save the world single-handedly!  I shall give you much collaboration.  My requirement of you meanwhile is one-pointed commitment to occupying with that which I have given for you to do.  I am the head of the body.  I lead; always follow, keeping unwaveringly focused upon the Path, lest you stumble and fall.  Meanwhile, REJOICE.  Victory is assured and unstoppable.  Give praise to Papa.

 

*This means the Spirit or Truth, or the Holy Breath.  For full explanation please see Diary entry dated Late October 1997

 


  

Holy Communion May 24, 1998

 

Let not pride or resentment two potent tools of the enemy distract you from your one-pointed commitment to serve and to grow in wisdom and perception of the Kingdom reality.  I lead, do thou follow.

 

Beloved Lord Jesus, I have pondered for long that Theresa and I, and Theresa especially, are still being required, called upon by circumstances, to serve so many Earth life functions and do for others what I have, often resentfully, felt they should by now be doing for us.  Now, during this Service, it has dawned upon me that this is to do with your teaching and example that he who would be greatest amongst us must be as one who serves; also, that this is within the concept/principle that it is not what happens to us that counts/determines how we go forward but how we react/respond to that which happens to us that determines this.  And, as Olga wrote many years ago, what happens is not our own, Earth-conscious choice; we do not decide whether we will serve, whether we will be prosperous, whether our worldly wealth and conditions will be cushy; no, they are governed by circumstances beyond our Earth-conscious control.

 

It must be so, my son, for how can you write your own examination questions, or set your own test?  It would always be the inclination not to stretch yourself, so you would not grow according to your actual capacity for growth but only according to your own perception of your capacity.  Who, also, wishes to inflict hardship or adversity upon himself?  It must be according to the Great Teacher, who sees your heart and soul, who knows exactly your capacity to serve, to obey, to grow.  This keeps you stretched, keeps you dynamic and helps to bring about optimum achievement.  It is necessary that you understand that this is a principle, for yourself and for all.  I know your concern for your beloved and your desire to shelter and protect her from hardship.  But I say to you, in whose shelter and protection will she best be able to still grow, to serve and to fulfil her own heart's desire yours or Papas?  Let not pride or resentment 2 potent tools of the enemy distract you from your one-pointed commitment to serve and to grow in wisdom and understanding of the Kingdom reality.  I lead, do thou follow.

 


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Holy Communion May 31, 1998

 

The enemy would have you stumble even at the very last hurdle.  Do you think I do not know this?  Keep your focus always upon me. 

 

I became aware of our granddaughter’s angel standing guard over her and realised how this is characteristic of Papa’s Love for all his children more than we can know.  And having descended into the enemy’s domain, where we really need His protection (we don’t need His protection in Heaven in the angelic form because we are in the safety of His Kingdom there), in His Love He has provided for us by the angelic presences.

As I pondered how He had done so many wondrous things for Lydia Christensen Prince,* the Master said to me:

 

If I will that this be her work for me, what is that to you?  Follow me!

 

My son, each of my jewels has a different ray in the spectrum of Light.  Some are on a short wavelength, others on a long wavelength; each according to his/her own individual propensity and purpose.  Each is within my plan and objectives for the Kingdom and according to my wisdom and timing for him/her.  If a place or people are in need, so will I send my servant or my messenger in due season for the care and succour of my little ones.  The Kingdom is a multi-faceted jewel and has many parts.  I say to you, let not a spirit of envy or inadequacy cloud the vision which I have been revealing to you.  If I choose you for a long wavelength mission, do thou give thanks to Almighty God and be faithful.  Do not falter now in your patience and fortitude.  You have come thus far; the enemy would have you stumble even at the very last hurdle.  Do you think I do not know this?  Keep your focus always upon me.  Many would not have this patience.  Let it be a facet of the crown of your glory.  Give thanks and praise for the Glory of our eternal Papa God.  Each path, each work, is pioneering and this is true with you also, my beloveds.  Follow my lead always; I will never let you down.  All is well. 

 

*Lydia was a Dane who gave her life to God and whose life as a missionary in Palestine saw many miracles.  There is an excellent book about her life entitled Appointment in Jerusalem

 


 

Holy Communion June 14, 1998

 

It is well that you have given me authority in all matters.  Let it ever be so.  You will see that the matters which are impossible according to the will of man are entirely possible by the Will, the Breath, of God. 

 

Beloved Lord and Master, thank you for the guiding word that we should focus on what you are doing and not be distracted or distressed by events here in our Earth life conditions.

 

My son, have I not been counselling you thus over the years: ‘I lead, do thou follow’? Nevertheless the Word by any messenger is acceptable if the messenger is under my authority.  You know this is so even now with Max Lugani, for the message speaks straight to your heart and soul.

Have no concern for daily details and imperfections.  Have I not said it is the deep and burning desire of your heart which is the bright Light that indicates all the motivating of your birth mission?

It is well that you have given me authority in all matters.  Let it ever be so.  You will see that the matters which are impossible according to the will of man are entirely possible by the Will, the Breath, of God.  For this Wind blows from where and to where the children do not know; but the Father knows.  It shall accomplish Its purposes in equally unfathomable fashion.  Let it be so.

No-one is saying do not ask, seek or knock, but let FTOC be first and foremost.  Seek first FTOC and let understanding be given you as a free gift when you are least expecting it.  Are not those unexpected gifts the most surprising and delightful?  This is so that your FTOC may be strengthened the more by the unexpected.  This way you know of a surety that it is not you who have accomplished for Papa God, but He for you.

Be joyful in all your endeavours.  Let the New Wine of the Love of the Kingdom flow in you and intoxicate you and all around you.

 


 

Holy Communion June 21, 1998

 

Even now you see how your own progress is taking ever greater form and shape.  This is because the Lord is bringing you to the place already created for you, and you alone, by Papa.  Not one step is left to chance, to some haphazard lottery.

 

It has been a joy having greater awareness of being on the Hill of the Lord.  John the Beloved, the Teacher, said, “How about John of Zion?” as I made ready to broadcast the Holy Invitation, instead of John of Patmos.

Beloved Teacher, my beloved friend; how apposite is this new awareness.  A new name for you which in reality is very old.  I thank you with all my heart for all your leading and guiding over the years.

 

Dear friend, yes we have travelled the road in good and happy fellowship these many days and miles and truly there has been – and will be – joyous fellowship together, bound by our mutual Love, devotion and commitment to our beloved Lord and Master and friend.

Of course there is still much to learn – for all – but let the focus remain ever upon the good Lord and his perfect plan.  He is bringing you and all who will, into perfect oneness with it, one step at a time. 

Even now you see how your own progress is taking ever greater form and shape.  This is because the Lord is bringing you to the place already created for you, and you alone, by Papa.  Not one step is left to chance, to some haphazard lottery.  All is a perfect block by block process of building His unique temple, which is you, and which it is His good pleasure to occupy.  And this shall be for his Glory and fulfilment of his good purposes in you.

So it is my friend, with all who will receive his good gifts of perfect, eternal life.  And each individual temple shall become a building block in the Great Temple, of which the Chief Cornerstone is well known to you.  And the Light and the Life of the temple shall be the life of the stones themselves, because they are His Life, made perfect in myriad forms, all fitting perfectly together, according to the great, original plan by the great Architect.  Nothing shall falter; nothing shall fail and we shall all dwell in the House of the Lord forever.  Amen. 

 


 

Holy Communion July 5, 1998

 

…the real point is that in your heart and soul you have a strong and burning desire for the Kingdom on Earth and that your commitment and loyalty are to me, your Lord; the Way, the Truth and the Life.

 

Beloved Master, I begin to perceive that the power in the words of this precious Service are, because we have been focusing upon them, speaking them, desiring their fulfilment for 30-plus years, beginning to become a solid, living, growing, organic structure in our lives, for your glory, for the Kingdom, for the casting out of all evil, injustice, wrongdoing.

 

My son, it is of no consequence that there are times when any, or even all, of the living, power-filled words that you speak in this temple-Service may not be sharply focused as you speak them.  As you know, the real point is that in your heart and soul you have a strong and burning desire for the Kingdom on Earth and that your commitment and loyalty are to me, your Lord; the Way, the Truth and the Life.

It is important because it is I, the empowered, authorised Lord of Heaven and Earth, who am the Living Word by which the fulfilling of these things is being and will be accomplished.  It is not dependent upon your efforts; your alignment of desire and commitment simply ensure that you are part of the process and the fulfilment.  Your harmonising, by obedience and faithful following of my leading, in trust, ensures that many joyous experiences may be shared by you and by all for whom you pray, whose lives you sincerely commit to my care and transforming, and whom you bless with the Love so freely and constantly outpoured upon you.

And so I say to you, my beloveds, keep on faithfully, rejoicing and having no concern for the outworking.  Occupy with those matters entrusted into your care and have no fear or anxiety for the completion of those things which you do in my name.  All shall be fulfilled.

 


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Holy Communion July 19, 1998

 

Have no concern – am I not the Lord of the tempest?  I tell you, there is no disturbance over which I am not the Lord and over which I am not able to cast peace and restore equilibrium.  Therefore, let your focus be always upon me and not upon the tempest, lest the boisterousness of the waves disturb your trust in me and allow fear to enter into your heart.

 

Beloved Lord, the events of the last few days have, I believe, been an opportunity for some wondrous forward progress in the untangling of so much karma.*  We do not particularly see what has happened at the Earth-life level of awareness but I believe it will come into manifestation over time.

 

My son, as with all things, FTOC is the essential ingredient for well-being.  It is no use worrying over details, like a dog with a bone, but rather, believe and you shall see wonders.  Bless those in need of blessing.  Love those in need of loving.  Pray for those in need of prayer.  Commit the outworking of all details to me.  Worry about nothing.  You believe in God; believe that all things are within His care.

Draw close to me always.  Energies not yet harmonised with our pattern of togetherness have created some disturbance, but this is unavoidable when there is an opportunity for rescue work.  Have no concern – am I not the Lord of the tempest?  I tell you, there is no disturbance over which I am not the Lord and over which I am not able to cast peace and restore equilibrium.  Therefore, let your focus be always upon me and not upon the tempest, lest the boisterousness of the waves disturb your trust in me and allow fear to enter into your heart.

 

I love you Lord; I praise you for your Lordship over all things; I thank you for reinstating the focus of our lives.

*This refers to some healing of relationships that had been damaged for many years.

 


 

Holy Communion July 26, 1998

 

…the path is arduous and beset by pitfalls; these are of the enemy.  It is my desire to equip all the little ones with night-sights, so that they may see and negotiate all obstacles from and within the darkness, until they reach the glorious Light of Day.

 

Beloved Lord and Master, I rejoice in your charge over our lives, your guiding, leading and instructing.  I thank you Lord, that you have made us aware that our relationship with you and Papa and the Holy Breath  is a Partnership.

 

My son, if our relationship was not a Partnership, what would it be?  Do not you want your little ones to grow into a full and equal relationship with you?  As Papa's children, this is His desire for you also.

In order for the fallen world to be restored to its rightful position there must be co-operation between Heaven and Heavens emissaries in enemy territory the resistance.  Without this the prayers and blessings from Heaven cannot be made manifest in the lives of the lost sheep, the imprisoned, the blind, the seekers after truth.

The energy of Life and Love and blessing needs transformers for converting to the required level of implementation.  The whole Kingdom rescue programme is one of voluntary commitment.  There are no press-gangs in Papas House.  All is by equal partnership and all are dependent on the continuing, voluntary commitment of each other volunteer.  This is the Freedom of the Kingdom of God.  The enemy has no such arrangements.  All its servers are prisoners of fear, hatred and ignorance.  It is Papas changeless desire to freely share all the bounty of his Kingdom with all who will freely enter into His joy.  Although the path is arduous and beset by pitfalls, these are of the enemy.  It is my desire to equip all the little ones with night-sights, so that they may see and negotiate all obstacles from and within the darkness, until they reach the glorious Light of Day.

 

I love you Lord and I thank you for the freedom that our life with you brings.

 


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Holy Communion August 2, 1998

 

It is paramount that, come what may, you, and all who would follow me, must hold fast, be utterly one-pointed in your focus, steadfast in your desire to be my disciples.  FTOC are absolute prerequisites of the path of discipleship.

 

At the beginning Pop* said to me, “Why wasn’t all this made known in the Earth-life?  Now Ive got my own teeth back I can really get them into it!”

My beloved Lord, I feel as if I am, in terms of spiritual attunement at the moment, rather flat.

 

My son, it is necessary that you be aware of the need for absolute commitment; that the Way, the narrow path, is not always plain sailing; that the enemy waits by the wayside, always seeking opportunities to work its evil ways.  It is not possible that you, or anyone, can be shielded from this or you would have no awareness of the real danger of backsliding and falling away.  It is paramount that, come what may, you, and all who would follow me, must hold fast, be utterly one-pointed in your focus, steadfast in your desire to be my disciples.

Only by experiencing flat spots can you become aware that effort, FTOC are absolute prerequisites of the path of discipleship.  The enemy seeks to trip you, to tip the crown that it is my good pleasure to give you, over your eyes and deceive you into many false ways: of arrogance, complacency, self-satisfaction, pride.

I say to you, keep your sights focused only on me; without this focus, it is inevitable that even the most committed of aspirants will be tripped and fall.  For, though you are aware of the presence and the ways of the enemy, only your one-pointed commitment to me enables me to safeguard you from the destruction that befalls all who do not afford themselves of my protection.

Nevertheless, I say to you also, REJOICE, for the great celebration is for all who desire it, and the enemy cannot deny such what is rightfully theirs.  All is according to the Great Rescue Plan, and cannot fail.  Have no fear or concern for any detail.

 

*My dad, who laid aside his body in November 1997, aged 87.  Although I could speak with him while he was here, of spiritual matters in general, he had no particular awareness of the SMCC.  After he had left this world it didn’t take him long to turn up for our communion Services, warmly, lovingly invited and welcomed by Theresa and me.

 


 

Holy Communion August 9, 1998

 

…we place ourselves and all things other people and their lot, our desire for Papa’s Kingdom of righteousness, our own sickness, weakness, frailty, impotence etc. in the Lord’s care, knowing that he has power, a GRP that we don’t yet fully understand, to fulfil our redemption, rescue, restoration.

 

During this Communion, many new, subtle awarenesses and realisations of eternal reality have come in, mostly so close to the edge of my ability to comprehend that they are hard to express in words.  In this fallen-world Earth life, we are subject to enemy conditions.  We do not desire them; we do not want them; we eschew them.  But this is, for the time being, its domain.  We volunteered to come into them to be servants/agents of the Lord’s Great Rescue Programme for the enemy’s prisoners/slaves.  We have to allow the conditions – sickness and whatever else we have no apparent control over, time and place finiteness, degeneration of the physical etc – to progress to their destiny, which is death and destruction – the antithesis of Papa’s Way or Plan.  The difference is that we do not go in head-to-head in contest with this time and place process.  Instead we place ourselves and all things – other people and their lot, our desire for Papa’s Kingdom of righteousness, our own sickness, weakness, frailty, impotence etc. – in the Lord’s care, knowing that he has power, a GRP that we don’t yet fully understand, to fulfil our redemption, rescue, restoration.  He will fulfil the righteousness, the Love, the truth, the Glory and by allowing Him to do this for us, we become part of it.  Whatever is our lot – M.E., back trouble, a sense of helplessness – this is our “cup.”  If we “drink” it, its out-working to glorious fulfilment can be accomplished by Papa – not by us; it is the Lord who makes all things new, not we ourselves.  We must “drink” it in absolute FTOC, just as Jesus “drank” his “cup” and Papa was able to fulfil in Jesus’ Earth mission the resurrection, leading to his being given all power and authority in Heaven and in Earth.  If we are not ready or are unable to drink it, Papa will not force us but we then have to face the alternative – submission to the enemy’s ways and conditions.  This is unthinkable and unacceptable because we are Papa’s children, Sons of the Kingdom.  We know His Ways, His righteousness, eternal, perfect Truth.  Anything less is anathema – death and hell.

If our “cup” is difficult, how does it compare with the Master’s cup?  And we have him as our Lord, our Saviour, our friend, our constant, unfailing example and strength.

Beloved Lord and Saviour, thank you for this going forward and for helping me to perceive and to know the Love and truth of Papa’s eternal reality.

 


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Holy Communion August 16, 1998

 

You ask your Heavenly Father for your bread of Earth and of Heaven daily.  Are your prayers earnest and sincere?  Do you believe He hears you?  I assure you it is His good pleasure to provide for you.  Every day.  Without fail.  Have faith in Him; trust Him; learn to be obedient to Him.  Without these things He cannot fulfil in you your hearts desire.

 

Beloved Lord and Saviour, Jesus, my best friend; I feel as if we are going forward across a broad front, that events, with you in command of all, are unfolding.  I ask your control, your charge, over all the affairs of our lives, for your power and wisdom to prevail in all that we do.

 

My beloved son, think not that you are entering a phase when your life is lacking in direction or purpose.  Because events are not crashing into your life daily indicates a time of preparation.  You do well not to rush into decisions.  If in doubt, do nothing has been serviceable for your going forward.  Observe and ponder, committing all things to me.  Fear not concerning your well-being at all levels.  You ask your Heavenly Father for your bread of Earth and of Heaven daily.  Are your prayers earnest and sincere?  Do you believe He hears you?  I assure you it is His good pleasure to provide for you.  Every day.  Without fail.  Have faith in Him; trust Him; learn to be obedient to Him.  Without these things He cannot fulfil in you your hearts desire.

And I assure you, your hearts desire for the Kingdom, truth, righteousness, justice, for your fellows to know and experience the reality of my living being cannot be fulfilled by your own endeavours.  To whom, then, will you turn for strength, courage, empowerment?  I and my Father are One.  Place your trust for all your needs and all your desires in me and in Papa.  Distinction is not necessary.  Have no concern regarding the Holy Breath either, for He is ever with you, around and within, bringing to your awareness all that We would have you know, all that in a moment is brought to your awareness; treasures new or old. 

 

Beloved Master, I love you and I thank you for your love, power, protection, wisdom and guidance.

 


 

Holy Communion August 23, 1998

 

My son, as you know, the seed contains the blueprint for the life to emerge and unfold.  This is true also with all who come into the Earth-life on a mission.  All the details are agreed and stored.  Without this is there would be nothing to emerge and unfold, nothing to be fulfilled. 

 

I realised that the “journey” of John from Patmos to Zion – from enslavement-to-the-enemy to the summit of the Hill of the Lord – is a journey that we also are making/have made.  We are now broadcasting the message of salvation by the bread and wine of eternal life and truth revealed in Jesus for all who will receive it and come to partake of it by the Light of the Lord that he has shone in our hearts because of his Love for us.

Master, beloved Lord and Saviour, I realise that this is what you’re doing for us; that this is and has been your plan all along.

 

My son, as you know, the seed contains the stored blueprint for the life to emerge and unfold.  This is true also with all who come into the Earth-life on a mission.  All the details are agreed and stored.  Without this is there would be nothing to emerge and unfold, nothing to be fulfilled.  All would be an intolerable, random series of events, blown this way and that by each gust of wind, buffeted and bruised, hurled onto rocks of misfortune.  There could be no strengthening of souls, only breaking by random strikes from the enemys darts.  The fulfilling is from within by organised, structured outworking from the Spirit of Truth within each soul who opens to receive it.  Souls who opened to receive it aforetime bring it with them, for they are never left or forsaken.  Nothing is left to chance by Papa.

All is well.

 


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Holy Communion August 30, 1998

 

My son, truly the Kingdom comes not from observation but from faith, trust, obedience and commitment (FTOC).  If you have but a shred of desire and you remain one-pointed, it will grow in you, faithfully nurtured and tended by the Good Husbandman…

 

Beloved Lord Jesus, I am beginning to see how all this that we have been faithfully doing and praying for is beginning to unfold into the Earth-life level of our lives.

 

My son, truly the Kingdom comes not from observation but from faith, trust, obedience and commitment (FTOC).  If you have but a shred of desire and you remain one-pointed, it will grow in you, faithfully nurtured and tended by the Good Husbandman, until the tiny seed has put down its roots into the Earth and shoots into the light, for exchange of all that is needed for balanced growth.

Balance is needed for healthy growth balance of giving as well is receiving.  In due course the growth will be sufficient for it to be serviceable for the sheltering, the comforting, nurturing and nourishing of those in the Earth life.  Let it be; let it happen.  Nothing that you do can make it be so, can hasten its unfolding.  Only by desire can it become so.

I do assure you my son, that all that you have faithfully followed and served, you and your beloved Companion of the Way, shall not be to no avail.  It has been set in motion for good purpose.  Your commitment and your desire are undiminished and I will never leave or forsake you.  I do counsel you to be patient until the details are outworked and you will see many more wondrous signs from Heaven.

All is within my care.  Remember, and doubt not, that I have been given all power and authority in Heaven and in Earth.  Victory is assured.  All the enemys endeavours are only of time and place and therefore are finite.  Its cycle must run its course and come to an end.

 


 

Holy Communion September 13, 1998

 

It is not possible for you to forgive* others, only to desire to forgive others.  By so desiring, I give you the gift of forgiveness and then you truly have forgiveness.  It flows out from you, through you.  In Truth, it is not yours to give.  All things come of Me and are My free gift to all who will receive freely. 

 

As I knelt to make my dedication I felt Papa above and around me.  He held me in the stillness and said, “My son, draw closer to Me.  Open yourself to receive My love more.  I realised that we have been led to believe that we must spend so much time in service to others that we don’t allow enough focus on receiving Papa’s love and blessing for ourselves, to receive the wholeness that He longs for us to receive.  This is ‘the lie of Satan.

At the Kingdom prayer, as I spoke the words to Papa “… forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors…” He jumped in and instantly said, “I forgive you!” He was holding in His right hand what looked like a bolt of lightning, about 60 cms long. It was jagged, rather reminiscent of stylised illustrations of a bolt of lightning.  It was like pure living gold, radiant and bright as the sun. He swooped His hand down with it and placed it in my spine. I felt the restorative power with which it filled me.  

I realised that forgiveness and the wholeness into which it releases us is what He longs to give us.  It is integral with repentance, which simply means turning round and being restored to full, loving, eternally-living relationship with Him.  Until we “come to ourselves” and turn around 180° from the darkness and face toward the Light which is Papa, how can the free gift of forgiveness (and with it the restoration to wholeness and Life), that He constantly proffers, be ours until we are willing to gladly receive and accept it unto ourself?   

Beloved Papa, truly, wholeness, restoration, life itself, is Your gift of the Spirit.  Truly it is the Holy Spirit, the Holy Breath, the wondrous Comforter.  I thank you for Your revelation today and joyfully open myself, the door of my life, to receive Your Love more.  Thank you for giving me Your forgiveness.  It is, I now know, the real experience, and does transform our lives from within.  I feel freed from the burdens of unforgiveness that have been ebbing and flowing around and within me.

 

My son, rightfully you say that this is My free gift to all who desire, earnestly, to receive it and hold fast in FTOC  to my Word.  It is not possible for you to forgive* others, only to desire to forgive others.  By so desiring, I give you the gift of forgiveness and then you truly have forgiveness.  It flows out from you, through you.  In Truth, it is not yours to give.  All things come of Me and are My free gift to all who will receive freely.  Thus can these good gifts not be abused or manipulated by distorted desires.

Eternal life is My free gift also to all who desire to receive it.  Let your desire be pure in all things My son.  I empowered My beloved Firstborn for forgiveness of ‘sins’ on Earth because it is My gift to give to whomsoever I choose.  This was befitting of his status and his mission, so that as many as I gave to him should recognise him as My Anointed Messenger.  To you I say, pray for your fellows as many and as often as you are able.  So shall the incense rise up to Me as a pleasant aroma and enable the outpouring of My Love and wholeness to be received, to enter in whereunto I send it.

Peace be with you; all is well.

 

* This refers to ‘false forgiveness. As stated in the A Course in Miracles Workbook, page 401: False forgiveness is where the ‘sin’ is acknowledged and then forgiven.  However, the flaw in this misperception is that by acknowledging the sin, we give it reality.  This is a ploy of ego mind, which wants us to be bogged-down in a false world of sin…

 


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Holy Communion November 15, 1998

 

Receive of Me the Royal garment of Sonship, of stewardship, of brotherhood, to give you peace, joy, fulfilment.  And when you have partaken and are filled, then you will be able to give freely of this wholeness to all, according to their readiness to receive.

 

My beloved Papa, your wonderful words of truth and encouragement that fear is for the ungodly and to practice inclining my ear (as well as my heart) to you are so inspiring.

 

Enter in to My Presence, My son.  Envision the act of taking those steps into the Most Holy Place, into the Holy Presence.  Having focused thusly, the Earth clamour and distraction will fade out of focus and cease to be in your awareness.  Your new focus will become attuned rapidly, especially with practice, upon the inner peace and stillness of My presence.  There you have awareness of My Love, tenderness, fatherly concern for your peace of mind, fulfilment of your hearts desire.

Therein I shall motion you to be seated comfortably in My presence and to partake with Me in My banquet of the Living Word, which shall nourish your understanding and grow you in stature of eternal Being.  Therein shall your New Creation become reality, transforming and superseding all that is not of the wholeness of your spiritual heritage.

Therein you shall be surrounded by the Light, within and without.  Therein you will find no dark corners to conceal demon presences and fear.  There you will find all beauty for all the senses, pervading, permeating, uplifting, transforming.

Enter in, enter in, rejoicing.  Receive of Me the Royal garment of Sonship, of stewardship, of brotherhood, to give you peace, joy, fulfilment.  And when you have partaken and are filled, then you will be able to give freely of this wholeness to all, according to their readiness to receive.

 


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Holy Communion November 22, 1998

 

Keep your eye single, focused upon the Kingdom and the Truth of Eternity.  Let your desire for this truth and its righteousness, justice, compassion, have priority in all your decision-making.  Call upon my name, my power, my guiding, my authority in all your concerns and all your endeavours.

 

Beloved Lord and Saviour Jesus, I feel as if my going forward in trust is taking place in a tangible way.  The world of time and place says we must make things happen and not rely on others… 

 

I say, rely on me.  Keep your eye single, focused upon the Kingdom and the Truth of Eternity.  Let your desire for this truth and its righteousness, justice, compassion, have priority in all your decision-making.  Call upon my name, my power, my guiding, my authority in all your concerns and all your endeavours.  Let your eye focus upon me and your desire be for that in which I have led and continue to lead you.  Doubt not that I have been leading you from the start; that every day of this, your earthly life, has been within my care and protection.  I have led you and separated you from the ways of the world of Earth-mindedness so that all that I have ordained in and for you could be given for your instruction, unsullied by that which blows in the wind.  This, so that you could be anchored fast in the rock and not be blown onto the jaws of destruction that await all who are tempted away from the path.

Now, as the time approaches for your work to begin, it is necessary that your trust and commitment be *tested.  Hold fast.  That which passes away is not your strength and your salvation.  I am.  Every detail of your life is within my care.  You have shown yourself faithful in those things which were not yours; now receive that which is rightfully yours.  Have no doubt.  And even when doubt besets you, let it not draw you from the path.  I will prevent you from distraction and will accomplish your hearts desire.  Pray, commit and bless.  Herein is strength, herein is empowerment, herein is fulfilment.

 

*This does not mean testing by God, but is rather, a self-assessment process, to show ourself that we are truly ready for further progress.  This is explained eloquently, lucidly and comprehensively by Jesus to me in a message posted as the January 2nd 2008 Message of Encouragement.

 


The following Diary entry was posted on December 24th 2008.

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Holy Communion October 4, 1998

 

…your desire for one-pointed commitment to all Truth and righteousness enables the Law to become enacted for you.  It is there always, eternally, but those who are not in at-one-ment with it do not have access to it because they have separated themselves from it. 

 

At the words “Ye angel guardians…” I was aware of the Tall Priest, standing on some steps, making a benediction over us in a Latin chant.  He was sprinkling holy water over us and I got the impression that this was for our protection from lower, contrary psychic vibrations; to envelop us in the spiritual atmosphere of exalted, heavenly conditions.

Beloved Papa, thank you for the revelation by the Holy Breath that the 23rd Psalm is cosmic law, immutable, but also personal to each of us.

 

My son, your desire for one-pointed commitment to all Truth and righteousness enables the Law to become enacted for and in you.  It is there always, eternally, but those who are not in at-one-ment with it do not have access to it because they have separated themselves from it.  So it is with all the Laws of Eternity.  This is how My beloved Firstborn was able to invoke their reality in his Earthly life by being in at-one-ment with them.  This is possible only by FTOC.  It is, as you know My son, a free gift, which I long to give to all who will present themselves to receive it.  Presentation is possible by desire of the heart, so that you may be made ready prepared to enter into that rarefied atmosphere of Holiness unto the Lord.  It requires a voluntary relinquishment of the ways of time and place consciousness and the focusing of desire for that which is eternal.  Your hearts desire for this burns strongly My son, and has risen up before Me.  Because of this I shall accomplish in you all that you now discern as My truth.  Hold fast to this for your strengthening and encouragement in the face of all adversity.  Doubt not that I am able.

 


The following Diary entry was posted on March 11th 2009.

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Holy Communion October 18, 1998

 

Those who also acknowledge to themselves and to others the Hand of Beneficence, and lovingly, willingly, longingly, share of this beneficence with their fellows, shall receive greater measure, that their own generosity of spirit may be fulfilled.

 

Beloved Lord Jesus, I realise that all matters are known to you and are within your control.  Still I have been anxious about many details facing us in our Earthly circumstances.

 

My son, it is well known to you that when a child of God is aware only at the Earth-life, mammon-consciousness level, and is living according to the path of self-determination, the ever-present Hand of God and His Fatherly Providence is ignored, and often spurned.  It is nevertheless always there, and those who accept the reality of it and gladly, thankfully, rejoicingly turn toward it and open their hearts and their hands to receive of it, will be provided for.  Those who also acknowledge to themselves and to others the Hand of Beneficence, and lovingly, willingly, longingly, share of this Beneficence with their fellows, shall receive greater measure, that their own generosity of spirit may be fulfilled.  For all things truly come from Papa and without His Providence there is nothing to give.

I counsel you, live in trust of that Providence, not in doubt and fear.  Have I not told you, He knows all your needs before you ask?  Assuredly you know that it is so.  Hold fast in faith.  All your needs are well within His ability to provide.  Have no anxiety about the timing, for this is a toehold for the enemy to insinuate its fearful ways.

I assure you that your lives are and always have been, within the shelter of His wings.  Be peaceful.  All is well. 

 


The following Diary entry was posted on November 18th 2009.

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Holy Communion October 25, 1998

 

Will a loving parent permit His offspring to go off the rails and abandon them permanently?  Even if He felt unable to intervene, would He not send His messenger, with all the resources of Eternity at his command, to protect and provide for His beloveds, until they are safely restored to Home?

 

In a world reeling from doubt, confusion, fear, greed, betrayal, torture, sickness a ship without chart, compass or rudder how sorely are we in need of Divine assistance.  Thank you, Jesus, that your assistance is always lovingly, immediately available and freely given.  I call upon it always.

 

My son, keep on with prayer, commitment and blessing of the countless souls burdened by ‘the evil one’ and the yoke with which my little ones have been seduced away from the truth and freedom of their rightful inheritance. 

Be assured that this was never an eternal deprivation because the power of the enemy is limited to the time and place cycle, which, even in the precession (of the equinoxes) must run its course.  Papa has permitted this limited cycle of activity because His little ones have the irrevocable free will that is His gift to them all, because of His Love, and they have so chosen.

Will a loving parent permit His offspring to go off the rails and abandon them permanently?  Even if He felt unable to intervene, would He not send His messenger, with all the resources of Eternity at his command, to protect and provide for His beloveds, until they are safely restored to Home?

As you know, prayer, focused and sincere, is strong armament for protection and rescue deliverance from the destructive ways of the enemy.  Even as you are under this protection, so give freely to your fellows in need of such succour.

 


The following Diary entry was posted on May 13th 2009.

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Holy Communion November 1, 1998

 

The Path that leads to eternal Truth is not a dark and oppressive regimen, but a path of Light and joy for all who are willing to accept the discipline to remain upon that path.  It is Freedom

 

Beloved Jesus, I begin to glimpse that I dont need to be anxious about trying to drag the Kingdom, almost kicking and screaming, into the outer of the Earth-life because you are doing it!

 

My son, faithful and eager follower of the Way, your desire links you to the great Divine outflow of the Spirit by which the Kingdom is created and by which it shall be made manifest in the Earth, in due season.

Your desire can add to its inevitability and its unstoppability but it cannot alter its path of progress.  I counsel you, espouse yourself to it, to me, the Prince of Life Eternal, that your life becomes a constant part of it.  As you know, marriage* is by consent, not by force.  I am given all power and authority in Heaven and Earth, but this power is available to me only by my obedience to the Holy One and His Laws, or PLFs.  There is no other way to become one with Him but by obedience to those PLFs.  The Path that leads to eternal Truth is not a dark and oppressive regimen, but a path of Light and joy for all who are willing to accept the discipline, maintain the commitment to remain upon that path.  It is Freedom; you are free to receive fulfilment, to receive authority commensurate with your faithfulness to that which has been entrusted to your care.

I am well pleased with all that has been accomplished this day.  Peace be with you all and upon all within this household.

 

*The marriage of Heaven with Earth.

 


The following Diary entry was posted on July 15th 2009.

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Holy Communion November 29, 1998

 

How can a Father entrust his work and all his riches into the care of a son who is not dependable, committed, reliable, diligent in matters of the Fathers purposes?

 

Beloved Papa, thank you for the enlightening words of Joyce Sibthorpe: “If you have anything you want to say to me, to instruct me, to correct me, or any music, song or hymn, please speak to me and let it be known to me”.  I now ask this of you Papa.

 

My son, for you are My beloved son, for you love Me, honour Me, desire to be My son and to return to My House, to keep My holy and perfect ordinances: I Am well pleased at your faith, trust, obedience and commitment [FTOC] to Me.  I Am also well pleased at the growth in your understanding of the need to place all your reliance upon Me for all your needs, one day at a time.  How can a Father entrust his work and all his riches into the care of a son who is not dependable, committed, reliable, diligent in matters of the Fathers purposes?

It is needful that such an aspirant to stewardship over such important matters first show himself worthy.  This can happen only one step at a time, wherein he will be given the opportunity to learn, to show himself ready to assume the responsibility and the mantle of authority in a small way.  Then he will be presented with an opportunity to demonstrate to himself his worthiness in the appointment.

This has been so over the years, My son, one step at a time.  Each new step always appears to be a great obstacle with almost insurmountable height to be transcended.  Can you do this without guidance, instruction, help, FTOC?  As each step seems steeper, so these qualities become more necessary.  So I say to you, My son, stand fast, hold fast, trust in Me.  I will never forsake you or leave you, but will be for you your beacon of Light, your tower of strength and protection, a very present help in all your needs.

 


The following Diary entry was posted on September 23rd 2009.


 

Holy Communion December 6, 1998

 

Pray that the Fathers will be done in every detail.  Pray for the souls of the afflicted, that succour and healing balm may be administered to them in their times of distress.  Pray for the lost and the deceived, that the Light of eternal truth and spiritual wisdom may illumine the path before them...

 

Beloved Lord Jesus, as you know I’m in awe at many recent revelations and new awarenesses that are flooding in at present.  By your grace and enabling power please keep me in balance as they redefine my life and understanding.

 

My son, such shifts of awareness are always unsettling, and it takes time for equilibrium to become re-established.  Each going forward does this.  Let your comfort and your reassurance be in my words: I will never forsake you or leave you, in your devotion and commitment to me, and your great desire for the Kingdom of righteousness and Love.  Such will help powerfully to keep you centred and one-pointedly focussed.

However much such revelation may stir you and cause unsettled feelings over your place within my programme of salvation, hold fast to my counsel: If in doubt, do nothing.  Let your focus be on me, not on anothers experiences of me.  If I wish to reveal a new aspect of my campaign for your growing in preparation for what has been aforetime agreed between us, by such a messenger of my word, it is important that you keep your eye always upon me and not upon the messenger, for the enemy will use any opportunity to divert your attention away from me in order to deceive.

Pray that the Fathers will be done in every detail.  Pray for the souls of the afflicted, that succour and healing balm may be administered to them in their times of distress.  Pray for the lost and the deceived, that the Light of eternal truth and spiritual wisdom may illumine the path before them and show for them the falseness of the path upon which the enemy leads them deeper into the wilderness.  Pray for wisdom to walk with you every step of your journey.  Give thanks to the Holy One for His Love for you and for all His children.  Praise Him with every breath of life that is given you.  And fear not.

 


The following Diary entry was posted on January 6th 2010


 

Holy Communion December 13, 1998

 

However tempting it may be for you to wish to precipitate action, I counsel you, greater joy and fulfilment and absence of doubt shall be yours by allowing me to outwork and unfold the path of progress in all matters.

 

Beloved Lord Jesus, my beloved friend, Counsellor and guide in the Truth of Eternity, I am finding our new friend Joy is so much on our mind.  Her enquiry for time with us and prayer to commune with us is in my heart and in my thoughts.  We have never met anyone who gives such strong vibrations of dedication and commitment for you and your Kingdom and seems so close to your real, living presence.

 

My son, pray, commit, bless is my counsel to you for Joy.  The desire of your heart to share fellowship in me with her is, as you well know, well known to me.  However tempting it may be for you to wish to precipitate action, I counsel you, greater joy and fulfilment and absence of doubt shall be yours by allowing me to outwork and unfold the path of progress in this, as in all matters.

Pray for Joy, that she may be held fast in the great tide that pulls at all my little ones and my jewels in the Earth-life at this time.  Commit her into my care, guiding and protecting and bless her for wisdom, inspiration of the Holy Breath and fulfilment of my work in her.  Send with the blessing the Love of my heart for her, which I have placed in you.

Watch and wait as I unfold events according to all that I have aforetime ordained.  It is necessary that you do not intervene with your own ambitions, however well-intentioned they may be.  This is necessary for your own growth in FTOC, my son, as well as to prevent unwitting derailment of the programme, or a part of it, for that would delay the very things you so eagerly seek.

 


The following Diary entry was posted on February 24th 2010


 

Holy Communion December 20, 1998   Our pre-Christmas celebratory Communion.

 

‘...It is my heart’s desire for you to be free of all entrapment by the schemes of darkness.  There is no compulsion in that which we do; only release from unwanted baggage and conditions that weigh us down.’

 

I saw Thelma1 peek diffidently round from behind a thick velvet stage curtain, where she was in the dark, and into an ultra-bright light, like a ‘Super Trouper’ follow-spot stage light, which was causing her vision to be temporarily obscured.

I was in doubt about initiating communication with Thelma direct and asked the Master, who immediately said, “Go-ahead and speak freely with her”.

 

Dear Thelma, peace and the joy of Heaven be with you and bless you, restore and uplift you.  I pray for your release from oscillation, doubt, fear, hurt, guilt, uncertainty.  It is my heart’s desire for you to be free of all entrapment by the schemes of darkness.  There is no compulsion in that which we do; only release from unwanted baggage and conditions that weigh us down.

I would like you to know that your beloved son, John Edward2, is here with us, doing wonderful things for the rescue and going forward of many lost and hurting souls.  Your Ted3 also is here and has become freed from all hurting and bitterness, free to be fulfilled as was never the case in his Earthly life.  Each one of us prays for you and is eager for you to join with us in glorious fellowship with the living Jesus, whom we all honour as Christ and Saviour.  God bless you, Thelma.

Brian, I want your help; I need your help.  No one else seems to care.

Thelma, you may not be aware of the caring of your loved ones who are in spirit because of barriers to your receiving which do not exist for us in the Earth-life, but the caring of Ted and John I can vouch for in absolute sincerity.  They long to welcome you if you are willing to let go of what is holding you back.  Open your hands, open your heart.  That will enable you to float free from darkness and into the Light.

You mean the others really care?

You know I am not inventing this Thelma.  You are loved by many more than you can know.  All of us are as yet imperfect, but shame is only a device of the enemy for keeping us from the Lord’s banquet chamber.

It is true, I do feel ashamed.  Ashamed of many wrongnesses.  I wanted to lead a right life but feel I was duped by the spiritualists, which I never wanted, but how could I deny what happened?

Thelma, all this is behind you now; letting it drag on and keeping you imprisoned in that place cannot possibly help.  It’s time for you to come out from behind that thick curtain that is keeping you from the Light.  Ted is calling, “Thel, Thel, come and join us; it's all over now, time for new beginning together.”

Is that really you, Ted?

And me, Mum, said John.

Dear Thelma, it is really time for you to come out and go forward.  There are so many for you to meet here and they all want to meet you.  The Light of Heaven frees us from all the old attitudes and mistrusts.  “All for Jesus, all for Jesus, this our song shall ever be” is being sung for you, Thelma; there is nothing to fear.

 

1  Thelma is Theresa’s mother, who laid aside her body in 1987 and has been oscillating between seeking the Light, and due to fear, shrinking back into the obscurity of darkness.

2  John  is Theresa’s brother, who laid aside his body in 1979, aged 35.

3  Ted is Theresa’s dad, who laid aside his body in 1994.

 


 

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