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Holy Communion January 4, 1998
Rejoice my beloved and focus on the new song. I will perform all the orchestration and the choreography. Peace and joy of Heaven be with you. Enter into the spirit and the chamber of celebration.
Before the service began I had awareness of John Lennon and he has been here throughout.
I love you, beloved Jesus, Master and friend.
This is a time of unsettlement in your life and Earth affairs my son but I reassure you, you have committed all to me and all is within my control. Be strong and absolute, unswerving in your one-pointed commitment to me and trust in my power to outwork and transform all matters for righteous and joyous fulfilment. Continue, undoubting, in your daily endeavours; let not any perception of setback deter you from or in your commitment and activities for the Kingdom.
You have been led to this place; you are under guidance and protection in all matters in your life because this is your desire. Outworking shall be by circumstances beyond your control, although by your desire for the Kingdom and Truth and your commitment to me; this shall be my affirmation to you of my control in your life. By your conscious acceptance of this principle all shall be more stress-free in your life and your mind. I will never abandon you and will never let you down. All is well.
Rejoice my beloved and focus on the new song. I will perform all the orchestration and the choreography. Peace and joy of Heaven be with you. Enter into the spirit and the chamber of celebration.
I love you, blessed Lord; I rejoice in you.
Holy Communion January 11, 1998
…have no concern for being tongue tied; rather allow the sincerity of your heart to radiate outward through - beyond - the words.
John Lennon has gone forward into the Light today! Praise God. He stepped out of his old self, like an outer costume and it fell away, lifeless and disintegrated. BJ has been helping him to go forward, full of Christ commitment.
Beloved Lord, I give thanks to you for all the wondrous joy of this, our life in you.
My friend, it is as your friend and mine, the Rector, says - have no concern for being tongue tied; rather allow the sincerity of your heart to radiate outward through - beyond - the words. Thus shall seekers, who are attracted by the soul conditions created by your desire, continue to be drawn to you by the Holy Breath.
All who are operating according to desire for the rightness of God's love and law are one with Him, even though this will be to greater or lesser extent commensurate with his or her place of individual attunement. And the object of the prayer and commitment of such a seeker shall be re-united with their Father by that act of prayerful presentation. This is the meaning of the Trinity - the triangle of oneness. It is a complete, secure, unbreachable unit. Think on this and allow your heart and mind to assimilate its meaning. Accept into your soul the Truth of this image, so that its reality may take root and grow in you. This shall strengthen your prayerfulness in presenting even the most remote wanderer in the wilderness and create a link, a pathway back to Papa. None is beyond His reach. Your faith can not only make you whole but can make them whole also.
I love you Lord, I rejoice in your living Word.
Amen.
Holy Communion January 18, 1998
…you have joined yourself to me and I am growing in you, my branches, much fruit because you are mine and because it is your desire.
The Master knelt right beside Steve as he made his dedication, shoulder to shoulder. The wine was fizzy at the offering.
The Master said that although the grapes - the fruit - are in the branches - us - we do not need to strive to know how to grow it, for He is growing the fruit in us and it is His purpose. He is doing it all for us.
Beloved Lord, this seems to be such a big area of “ungraspability” for us, as if there is a huge, mountainous barrier between this reality and our ability to let go of the “we have to do it all” consciousness.
This is the enemy's work my son - if it is not of God, your loving eternal Father, it is of the enemy. But, I counsel you, do not be concerned about that because the enemy has already been defeated at my chastisement and all who willingly place themselves - branches - in me, the vine - come within the actuality of that Truth. It will happen; it is being accomplished in the lives of all such in spite of the lie of Satan still echoing in the minds of my little ones.
It is not real in the hearts, souls, eternal spirit of such because I have removed it, washed it away. It is of the life force, not of the mind or understanding. It has become placed in the heart and soul and grows outwards from there, into all other parts of the being, eventually permeating the mind so that the lie evaporates from there also.
So it is, like growing a baby, not dependent upon the perception of the mind and the mind has no influence, no control in the matter. So is it with spiritual fruit - you have joined yourself to me and I am growing in you, my branches, much fruit because you are mine and because it is your desire. Peace and grace and joy eternal be with you my beloveds. All is well. Have no fear.
Holy Communion January 25, 1998
Be patient, be faithful, be trusting. I will not let you down. It is my desire
that you, my beloveds shall be whole.
Master, the awareness comes, by your light, one step at a time, into our hearts, minds, souls.
Again I say to you, my son, Ask and you shall receive, Seek and you shall find, Knock and it shall be opened unto you. You, each of my beloveds and my little ones, must travel the path by your own unfolding, growing desire for Truth. I cannot take the steps for you. Your seeking is the step. It must be taken in absolute, blind faith, trust and obedience. I will not leave you or forsake you. I travel every step with you. I shall place under your feet the sure and certain, unfailing path.
In the same way as it is Papa's law not to try to gather more of His life-giving Manna than you need for each day, so do not try to take more than one step at a time or to see the path stretched out before you, for it is not there. It unfolds at your feet. It grows by Papa's life and husbanding in response to your desire, your outreaching to Him and by your FTO. I am the Way, the path, the sure foundation by which you come to Papa, and by this you shall neither stumble nor fall. Be patient, be faithful, be trusting. I will not let you down. It is my desire that you, my beloveds shall be whole. So shall it be according to your steadfastness and one-pointedness for the glory of God and the furtherance of His Kingdom.
The following Diary entries were posted on September 6th 2006.
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Holy Communion February 1, 1998
My son, as a flower responds to the drawing power of Papa's creative, fulfilling forces -- sunlight, moisture, geotropism, without anxiously striving, so can it be, must it needs be, with you.
At the partaking I was aware of the Master in the midst of the altar, “coming into my presence, to sup with me and me with him.” He offered me the bread and wine in characteristic manner of lovingly attending his beloveds.
Lord, I love you and am eager -- all too often anxious -- that my life be in harmony with your purposes in me -- in us.
My son, as a flower responds to the drawing power of Papa's creative, fulfilling forces -- sunlight, moisture, geotropism, without anxiously striving - so can it be, must it needs be, with you. You, all His children, have in common with all His creation the inbuilt facility for responding to His drawing. In you, as with all who love me and love Papa, it manifests as desire. How well you know this my son. Let it be central to your life's operation.
Your eagerness is a positive attribute but let it not become so cumbersome that you stumble over it. All is within Papa's control and the unfoldment from your own within of your own birth vision, your own fulfilment, shall be by His control, even as it is with the cycle of a daffodil. Give thanks for this my son, for otherwise all, including your own life endeavours, would be in chaos. All must be according to the season of readiness.
I assure you that many joyous wonders await and it is Papa's good pleasure to freely give to you and your beloved, as to all who truly seek after Him and earnestly desire His Kingdom of righteousness and joy. Is it good to receive the gift of love before the appointed day? I counsel you, await with eager anticipation the hour when He shall restore you and put His Glory upon you. Meanwhile occupy according as circumstances permit and have no anxiety to labour over much for the meat that perishes.
I am your Lord and I am your friend. So be it.
Holy Communion February 15, 1998
…by your submission to my leadership and willingness to be led shall many joyous acts be accomplished.
Beloved Lord, two things are in my mind at present; first, that absolute faith, trust and obedience are necessary for you to be able to fulfil our heart's desire and your purposes in us. Second that it certainly is not we who can or will accomplish the fulfilment, for we are unable of our own Earth-mind will to do it. We do not have the knowledge or the power.
My son, without complete cooperation, willingness to be fully and totally part of the team, perfect coordination is not possible. Can trapeze artists perform such intricate acts of coordination without operating according to this principle, without abandoning personal ambition for the common good? Such cooperation requires leadership to provide the necessary signals for perfect unison of action and desire. And by your submission to my leadership and willingness to be led shall many joyous acts be accomplished.
The power, which is Papa's Spirit, the living, universal, eternal Truth of Life, can and will, by this submission and coordination, be channelled in and through you, so that it is not by your will but by your attunement with Universal Will that all your potential shall be fulfilled in you, according to your heart's desire. Having placed your life in my care, there is no cause for anxiety or uncertainty -- only for faith, trust and obedience, even as I so lived and live. Be assured that all is according to arrangements agreed before time. Your conscious cooperation enables the plans to proceed and to succeed. All is well. Allow Papa, the Good Husbandman, to grow the crop and it shall be a bounteous harvest indeed.
February 1998
For many years the words of Isaiah (53:1) "Who has believed our report? And to whom has the arm of the Lord been revealed?" have been in my mind. The Lord has revealed so many of Heaven's joys and wonders to us but at this time of writing, the children of the mammon of consciousness are absolutely resolute in their determination not to hear of our wondrous experiences. However during the last week or two I awoke in the night and was aware of circumstances in which I was speaking with such resolute unbelievers and was conscious of the loved ones (mother, father, spouse, offspring, close friends etc) of such, in the Heaven world, who were making themselves known by some incontrovertible indication (a phrase, an item of jewellery, a name or nickname, a symbol etc) which I could not possibly have known by any other source or means. The loved one in Spirit was then saying to the unbeliever, “Where is your life going without the Lord Jesus in it?” or words to that effect. This would prove to the unbeliever that “survival” was absolute and that their loved one in Spirit was not only communicating but calling to their attention (1) the directionless, unfulfilling, dissolute, wasted nature of their lives and (2) How all that could only be turned around by commitment to the reality of the Lord's life-transforming guidance, leadership, help and love.
Holy Communion February 22, 1998
Let the Love of the Holy One for His little ones, however close yet however far they might feel from Him, be in your heart. There, but for His Grace, His power, His redeeming of your life, go you.
Beloved Lord, I pray that the experience of passing the message of departed loved ones, “Where is your life going without the Lord Jesus?” may be born of your wisdom, guiding, power and love, so that it may be thus empowered for success in winning the souls of many hard-hearted, stiff-necked, faithless and perverse souls of this generation and that if it is not by your power and authority but instead, of my own self-will or worse, the devices of the enemy, that it may very quickly fade away from my memory.
My son, I do reassure you that there are many, many blueprints in the Kingdom portmanteau and that this experience is but one. Nevertheless, the stiff-necked need a jolt to loosen up their breadth of vision and understanding and such a device is just so designed. As with all plans, principles and mechanisms, let it operate only within the encompassment of Love. Let the Love of the Holy One for His little ones, however close yet however far they might feel from Him, be in your heart. There, but for His Grace, His power, His redeeming of your life, go you.
Only within the scope of such absolute commitment to His love in your heart and in all your motivation, can any such device be eternally serviceable to His eternal purposes. Outwith such commitment it becomes a tool of subversion and distortion of Truth in the hands of the prince of time and place.
Hold fast to the goal of your vision so that perspectives in-between do not lead you astray. I will never leave you nor forsake you. My programme goes forward apace. Do thou remain steadfast in thy one-pointedness, that double-vision does not intervene. All is well; peace and joy of eternity be with you now and always.
Holy Communion March 1, 1998
The prince of time and place does not readily relinquish that to which he desires title but in reality you are not his but Papa's.
Beloved Lord Jesus, I feel as if our forward progress is very real, that we are now at a stage where we have never been before; that part of me is uplifted to the Holy of Holies, one with you and Papa and that your empowerment is very close at hand, that more and more the attunement with you takes place. Yet I feel that another part of me is still resisting this and holding me back from complete oneness with you.
My son, this is the correct nature of your present conditions and state of progress. Yet, this is very good news, for the higher desire begins to emerge, to break free from the lower. Have no concern that you feel held back by the lower. It is a normal, expected part of the process. It is just like a butterfly emerging from its chrysalis. It does appear to be holding it back. But the desire of the butterfly to emerge, break free and fly into the sunshine drives it onward in its struggle to separate itself from its old, confusing, constricting conditions. So let it be in your struggle my son. Let your desire for the higher be your motivating, focusing commitment. That which is so at one level of Papa's laws of creation is also true at many other levels.
The prince of time and place does not readily relinquish that to which he desires title but in reality you are not his but Papa's. This is true of all my little ones, for whom I came and suffered, so that all who desire to emerge from dark, constricting confinement may soar to the heights of Heaven and be, rejoicing, where they belong eternally -- in glorious, endless fellowship with Papa, even as I have so been and now am. This is my desire for all His little ones, my son. Let it be yours also, to His Glory and your crown of fulfilment. Even when you may feel no progress is being made and you are not able to break free, rest in me and I will strengthen and restore you for the next attempt. So shall progress one step at a time bring the inevitable result.
The following Diary entries were posted on December 6th 2006.
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Holy Communion March 8, 1998
Remain close to me; let not your eyes be diverted by the events of the Earth, even those who claim me as their Lord but do not follow my ways, for their fruit is bitter and misshapen.
Beloved Lord, we are both feeling a bit wobbly at present as so many things we feel must be about to happen seem remote and blocked and the world so unready, unwilling or unable to receive the wonderful things you have given to us that we so long to give freely to your little ones.
My son, let not the enemy bring about in you introversion of perspective. I counsel you, trust in me and pray for the Kingdom, for the saving and transforming Grace of God's living spirit to be outpoured upon the face of the Earth, that all who are in need, sorrow, sickness and any adversity may be awakened to its reality. Pray that it may bring to all Papa's lost sheep hope, succour, nourishment for their starving souls, drink for their parched lips. When the enemy prowls close by and batters at your door take refuge in the Most Holy Place with me and with our Heavenly Father, Creator Spirit. Keep your focus on me. Do not let the focus drop onto the inadequacies of your present circumstances, for through such gaps the enemy can slither. Do not allow his wiles to trick you into comparing yourselves with others. That which I am outworking and performing with you is uniquely for you, as with all, according to your potential.
Even thistles have beautiful, purple flowers. Look for the good, the opportunities in each and every circumstance.
Remain close to me; let not your eyes be diverted by the events of the Earth, even those who claim me as their Lord but do not follow my ways, for their fruit is bitter and misshapen. That which I am performing in your lives is according to your faith, trust and obedience. All is well. I have overcome the world.
Holy Communion March 15, 1998
I am the Anointed One; I am the head of the body. But you are my parts, through whom these purposes and these desires shall be accomplished. The head has no power without the rest of the body through which to function.
As we read from Daily Light how by his stripes we are healed and how he was lashed for us, the impact bringing us to tears, the Master stood in the midst, loving and smiling and said, “Rejoice!” When I asked him how we could rejoice at this he said, “Because I have saved you from this.”
Beloved Lord, I do rejoice and I do give thanks for all that you have done for us and so many others. If nothing more than what we’re doing now unfolds, this will have been a great and fulfilling experience. And yet, Master I believe you are able to bring to pass much more in these great and exciting times, in the lives of those who love you.
My son, truly it is I who will accomplish in the lives of all who love me and give their lives to my great God-mission because Papa has empowered me accordingly. I am the Anointed One; I am the head of the body. But you are my parts, through whom these purposes and these desires shall be accomplished. The head has no power without the rest of the body through which to function. And more can be accomplished if the rest of the body does not rebel against the head but rather, co-operates gladly and follows the lead and the instructions.
I do assure you, my beloveds, that the glimpses of Papa's power to transform, such as with your grandson* and with your little dog, to cite but 2, are but glimpses. By your faith, continuing, as always in this way, wonders beyond your imagining shall emerge. It is joy to me that you have come to this place of obedience so that many acts of transformation can be performed, in the lives of countless little ones and in your own. I do counsel you, leave all matters to me; there is a plan, there is a direction. It is all according to this that your lives will progress and the path shall unfold accordingly at your feet. Relax and enjoy the journey for I will not let you down. You are eternally in my care and protection and guidance. All is well.
* This refers to the miraculous healing of our grandson’s hole in the heart - Theresa has written about this, below - and our dog’s healing from a slipped disc (see Forum uploads November 15th 2006)
Our grandson was born ten weeks early, weighing 1.2 Kgs (2lbs. 10oz). When he was two weeks old, I was away for the week at the Christian healing centre. Before going in to dinner on the Monday night I telephoned my daughter to see how she and the baby were. She told me that that morning the doctors had found a hole in the baby’s heart. Nothing would be able to be done for some time as he was so very tiny.
On Wednesday morning the visitors and prayer ministry team at the Healing Centre met in the large drawing room of the house for worship and prayer time, led by Hugh, the Centre’s warden. I sat on a sofa in front of one of the windows and Hilary, the warden’s wife, was on the window seat just behind me. At the appropriate moment I mentioned the situation at home and Hugh began to pray. I was aware of Hilary quietly praying behind me and then suddenly, in her lovely, bubbly, excited way, she said that she had seen the most beautiful picture: Jesus reached his hand into the baby’s chest and drew all the edges of the hole together with his fingertips. I remember little else of the morning as I was suffused with emotion and flooded with tears.
Wednesday afternoons at the Centre were devoted to quiet time and meditation, in preparation for the public healing service that evening. Again we met in the drawing room, and after a short prayer time, we were given a list of scripture verses, based on a particular theme, and then took ourselves off to wherever we chose to be to read and study the verses and wait on the Holy Spirit. After an hour or so we met up again to share (or not) whatever the Holy Spirit had for us. One of the prayer ministry team workers, Keith, drew me to one side. He asked if I would go to him that evening at the prayer ministry time, because during his quiet time he had been strongly impressed that the Holy Spirit wanted to anoint me to be an intermediary for my grandson’s healing.
Before going in for the start of the service I telephoned my daughter (the first time we had spoken since Monday). She said the doctors had told her that the heart sounds were a little softer today. We were all elated but little knew that the softer sounds actually meant that the hole was bigger! At the appropriate moment I went to Keith. I have no recollection of what was said, but when he made the sign of the cross on my forehead with the warm anointing oil, the deepest, most profound peace flooded my whole being.
On Friday morning we all went over to the church for the communion service, during which there is also prayer ministry. Back at the house after the service I met an elderly lady whom I had never seen before. It transpired that this lady had been on the ministry team at another healing centre in Kent. She told me that when she went into the church in Kent for the public services she would always know if there were any children brought there for healing, because she would see angels standing behind the altar rail, one for each child. She then said that she was a little perplexed today, as when she went into the church she had seen an angel and yet there were no children at the service. She had seen the angel standing beside me and that ‘He had his hand on your shoulder’.
My daughter told me later that day, that that morning, around 11:00 to 11:30’ish (when we were in the middle of the ministry time!), the doctors were examining the baby over and over – they couldn’t find the hole in his heart anymore!! Now approaching 11, he is as strong and energetic as any boy his age, with no health problems, and is an enthusiastic gymnast.
Holy Communion March 29, 1998
I counsel you, do not let your watchfulness become complacent, for many events are in progress for the unifying of Earth with Heaven. Do you wish to miss one of them? Now is the time for much rejoicing and celebration.
At the offering Pop (my dad, who had gone Home in November 1997) threw himself on my neck and thanked me for our prayers for him over the years, which he said had helped him, he now realised, to go forward and be freed from enemy shackles.
Master, this is my strong desire for all your little ones, that we may, by faithful and one-pointed following of your lead and by meaningful prayers, help many, many souls to be freed from enemy clutches and reach out to you.
My son, this is all part of the plan. Rejoice and have no trepidation. It is not dependant upon your understanding and your organisational skills but upon your heart's desire and your commitment to me. All else is well within my care and my power to bring to fulfilment, for all power and authority have been given to me over Earth and in Heaven to establish perfect operation of eternal Truth and wisdom and righteousness in all the realms of the little ones of Earth.
This has no dependence on the co-operation of Earthly kingdoms and rulers. For, if their rule is not of God authority, it shall be unceremoniously removed from them and put down. New authority under God shall be raised up in its place and the Power of Spirit shall be upon those who, according to their faithfulness, shall be chosen to preside over many cities in my name.
I counsel you, do not let your watchfulness become complacent, for many events are in progress for the unifying of Earth with Heaven. Do you wish to miss one of them? Now is the time for much rejoicing and celebration. Have no concern for how, when or where to share the tasty morsels from the banquet table with those who chance by on some mission of my calling. Leave all arrangements within my care. All is well.
Holy Communion Easter Day April 12, 1998
(Prayer) is all-powerful substance, able to cause the weak and the lowly of spirit, the disenfranchised and the outcast to endure, to prevail, to be raised up even when the opposing forces seem to be invincible.
During the offering I suddenly felt as if our prayers had -- or rather the Lord had, with the help of our desire, prayers and commitment -- lifted the strong, contrary, negative psychic level of consciousness-permeating conditions since the arrival of our deeply disturbed house guest, ‘M.’
Master, my prayer is still for your outworking of the karmic entanglements and that all endeavours by the enemy to foil this desire of your plan for transforming them may be thwarted.
My son, although matters at the Earth-life level of perception may have appeared bleak, that the enemy was in control, it is as you now observe and experience: that by your earnest desire and prayers, the contrary conditions are expired and my peace re-established. May this be for you a graphic demonstration of the Power of sincere, selfless prayer and giving. The enemy would have you believe that it is not so, that such is not real, mere fancy. I say to you, this is all-powerful substance, able to cause the weak and the lowly of spirit, the disenfranchised and the outcast to endure, to prevail, to be raised up even when the opposing forces seem to be invincible. It is as the delicate young shoots piercing concrete. It is the Power of Papa, His living Spirit transforming from the old order to the New order. As with the Israelites, these battles are Papa's, not yours. All that is desired of you is your one-pointed commitment, your faith, trust and obedience. He will perform all that needs to be done. The Power of the enemy is thus broken, for he has no power in the realms of eternal Fire.* Leave all matters in my care with the love and blessing of your heart for Papa's good Will to be done, believing. It is His good pleasure to accomplish it for all His children who humbly ask, trusting.
Go in peace and renewal of life. You have seen His power to transform before. Only believe and you shall see it again.
* Fire is the symbol of Spiritual consciousness.
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Holy Communion April 19, 1998
The leaven of Heaven works from the within out, transforming every molecule by radical attraction. This is the small detail causing the changes in the outworking of the large.
Beloved Lord and Master, thank you for being in the midst of these circumstances with M.* and all that is in the process of being transformed at present.
My son, all things are for the going forward of all my children and my little ones at this time. This is for your growing in FTO and for her releasing into the freedom of the Kingdom, by the breaking of shackles and bonds to the downward spiral of the enemy's control.
Leave all details to me and pray, commit and bless. You are not in the position of being able to see causes, effects and outworkings. Your desire for Truth and righteousness and love and peace are serviceable. The leaven of Heaven works from the within out, transforming every molecule by radical attraction. This is the small detail causing the changes in the outworking of the large. This is the Life of Papa, which is in all His creation and which goes forward, ever-becoming, until the whole is leavened and perfected, whereunto He spoke His word.
Have no concern that you do not see the complete picture. Rather, rejoice that a detail here and a detail there is revealed to you, so that each fragment may be etched into your soul awareness. Thus, when the details all become joined up into the overall picture, every part of it will be intimately known to you. If it were otherwise, no detail would be retained intact and all would disintegrate before you. Every detail, every fragment is part of the whole. Only by full and careful assimilation of each part can the wholeness of eternity be yours. This is the free gift of your Heavenly Papa and I am the messenger of the gift. Rejoice, all is well.
*See Diary entry dated April 12th 1998.
Holy Communion May 10, 1998
The Good Husbandman puts His Life into all His creation, especially His little ones, through His spoken Word, which is the Holy Breath, the Spirit of Truth. This Holy Breath breathes Life Eternal into the nostrils of all unto whom Papa sends it.
Beloved Lord and Master, so many new awarenesses are coming in about your great God-mission that I do not have any ability to grasp them and put them into words, especially on paper.
My son, have no concern about this. You believe in God, believe also in me and be faithful, as you have been, in that in which I have led you. This is all I require of you, for truly do you observe that the branch is the bearer of the fruit but it comes through the vine from the Good Husbandman.
The Good Husbandman puts His Life into all His creation, especially His little ones, through His spoken Word, which is the Holy Breath, the Spirit of Truth. This Holy Breath breathes Life Eternal into the nostrils of all unto whom Papa sends it. This Life Eternal includes awareness of the eternal realities and recollection of all things that have been experienced, heard and spoken. The whole treasurehouse of eternity is opened up for free access to all who have been tried and found worthy by their faithfulness, commitment, trust, obedience and have held fast to that which was freely given to them.
This storehouse shall provide all that you and anyone could ever need for giving to the needy, confounding the adversaries and fulfilling all the highest desires of the hearts who love Him.
You need do nothing my son, for all is according to the Great Plan, which is outworking. This has been working in your own life since conception and you are following it because the desire of your heart is strong. All is well and shall be fulfilled. Rejoice, for the Kingdom is eternal and unstoppable. Peace be with you always. I will never forsake you nor leave you.
Holy Communion May 17, 1998
Papa is drawing you into the Most Holy Place in response to your strong desire. From this Place goes out all Power for fulfilment.
Beloved Lord and Master, you have led me every step during this, my Earthly life. You have lovingly and patiently taught me of the mysteries. Now, after you have brought me to this place, where I have such a greater understanding of Papa's Truth, each and every bit of which I have so greatly desired to share with my fellows, I see ignorance and error and wrong decisions being made wherever I look. Yet who will believe me? They didn't believe you in spite of all your miracles!
My son, you are being allowed to experience this bewilderment as a necessary part of your education and preparation for that for which you came back into the Earth-life: To be my harbinger. It is not necessary at this stage of your preparation to understand how and when this will be enabled. This shall all be by empowerment by the Breath. As you well now know, all that is required of you is desire, commitment, faith, trust and obedience. All the outworking is beyond your remit.
I counsel you, observe, ponder, commit, pray. Papa is drawing you into the Most Holy Place in response to your strong desire. From this Place goes out all Power for fulfilment. You are, as ever, endeavouring to see and understand how your life's work for the Kingdom shall be accomplished but all details have not been made ready. How can the picture be seen when the pieces of the jigsaw have not yet been fitted together? And I counsel you also, that teamwork is another key ingredient. There are those in the Earth-life and in the Spirit, many of whom you are not yet aware, who will join with you. You do not have to save the world single-handedly! I shall give you much collaboration. My requirement of you meanwhile is one-pointed commitment to occupying with that which I have given for you to do. I am the head of the body. I lead; always follow, keeping unwaveringly focused upon the Path, lest you stumble and fall. Meanwhile, REJOICE. Victory is assured and unstoppable. Give praise to Papa.
Holy Communion May 24, 1998
Let not pride or resentment -- 2 potent tools of the enemy -- distract you from your one-pointed commitment to serve and to grow in wisdom and perception of the Kingdom reality. I lead, do thou follow.
Beloved Lord Jesus, I have pondered for long that Theresa and I and Theresa especially, are still being required, called upon by circumstances, to serve so many Earth life functions and do for others what I have, often resentfully, felt they should by now be doing for us. Now, during this Service, it has dawned upon me that this is to do with your teaching -- and example -- that he who would be greatest amongst us must be as one who serves; also, that this is within the concept/principle that it is not what happens to us that counts/determines how we go forward but how we react/respond to that which happens to us that determines this. And, as Olga wrote many years ago, what happens is not our own, Earth-conscious choice; we do not decide whether we will serve, whether we will be prosperous, whether our worldly wealth and conditions will be cushy; no, they are governed by circumstances beyond our Earth-conscious control.
It must be so, my son, for how can you write your own examination questions, or set your own test? It would always be the inclination not to stretch yourself, so you would not grow according to your actual capacity for growth but only according to your own perception of your capacity. Who, also, wishes to inflict hardship or adversity upon himself? It must be according to the Great Teacher, who sees your heart and soul, who knows exactly your capacity to serve, to obey, to grow. This keeps you stretched, keeps you dynamic and helps to bring about optimum achievement. It is necessary that you understand that this is a principle, for yourself and for all. I know your concern for your beloved and your desire to shelter and protect her from hardship. But I say to you, in whose shelter and protection will she best be able to still grow, to serve and to fulfil her own heart's desire -- yours or Papa's? Let not pride or resentment -- 2 potent tools of the enemy -- distract you from your one-pointed commitment to serve and to grow in wisdom and perception of the Kingdom reality. I lead, do thou follow.
The following Diary entries were posted on May 30th 2007.
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Holy Communion May 31, 1998
the enemy would have you stumble even at the very last hurdle. Do you think I do not know this? Keep your focus always upon me.
I became aware of our granddaughter’s angel standing guard over her and realised how this is characteristic of Papa’s love for all his children - more than we can know. And having descended into the enemy’s domain, where we really need His protection (we don’t need His protection in Heaven in the angelic form because we are in the safety of His Kingdom there), in His love He has provided for us by the angelic presences.
As I pondered how He had done so many wondrous things for Lydia Christensen Prince,* the Master said to me:
If I will that this be her work for me, what is that to you? Follow me!
My son, each of my jewels has a different ray in the spectrum of light. Some are on a short wavelength, others on a long wavelength; each according to his/her own individual propensity and purpose. Each is within my plan and objectives for the Kingdom and according to my wisdom and timing for him/her. If a place or people are in need, so will I send my servant or my messenger in due season for the care and succour of my little ones. The Kingdom is a multi-faceted jewel and has many parts. I say to you, let not a spirit of envy or inadequacy cloud the vision which I have been revealing to you. If I choose you for a long wavelength mission, do thou give thanks to Almighty God and be faithful. Do not falter now in your patience and fortitude. You have come thus far; the enemy would have you stumble even at the very last hurdle. Do you think I do not know this? Keep your focus always upon me. Many would not have this patience. Let it be a facet of the crown of your glory. Give thanks and praise for the Glory of our eternal Papa God. Each path, each work, is pioneering and this is true with you also my beloveds. Follow my lead always; I will never let you down. All is well.
*Lydia was a Dane who gave her life to God and whose life as a missionary in Palestine saw many miracles. There is an excellent book about her life entitled Appointment in Jerusalem.
Holy Communion June 14, 1998
It is well that you have given me authority in all matters. Let it ever be so. You will see that the matters which are impossible according to the will of man are entirely possible by the Will, the Breath, of God.
Beloved Lord and Master, thank you for the guiding word that we should focus on what you are doing and not be distracted or distressed by events here in our Earth life conditions.
My son, have I not been counselling you thus over the years: ‘I lead, do thou follow’? Nevertheless the Word by any messenger is acceptable if the messenger is under my authority. You know this is so even now with Max Lugani, for the message speaks straight to your heart and soul.
Have no concern for daily details and imperfections. Have I not said it is the deep and burning desire of your heart which is the bright light that indicates all the motivating of your life mission?
It is well that you have given me authority in all matters. Let it ever be so. You will see that the matters which are impossible according to the will of man are entirely possible by the Will, the Breath, of God. For this Wind blows from where and to where the children do not know; but the Father knows. It shall accomplish its purposes in equally unfathomable fashion. Let it be so.
Nobody is saying do not ask, seek or knock but let FTOC be first and foremost. Seek first FTOC and let understanding be given you as a free gift when you are least expecting it. Are not those unexpected gifts the most surprising and delightful? This is so that your FTOC may be strengthened the more by the unexpected. This way you know of a surety that it is not you who have accomplished for Papa God but He for you.
Be joyful in all your endeavours. Let the New Wine of the love of the Kingdom flow in you and intoxicate you and all around you.
Holy Communion June 21, 1998
Even now you see how your own progress is taking ever greater form and shape. This is because the Lord is bringing you to the place already created for you and you alone, by Papa. Not one step is left to chance, to some haphazard lottery.
It has been a joy having greater awareness of being on the Hill of the Lord. John the Beloved, the Teacher, said, “How about John of Zion?” as I made ready to broadcast the Holy Invitation, instead of John of Patmos.
Beloved Teacher, my beloved friend; how apposite is this new awareness. A new name for you which in reality is very old. I thank you with all my heart for all your leading and guiding over the years.
Dear friend, yes we have travelled the road in good and happy fellowship these many days and miles and truly there has been – and will be – joyous fellowship together, bound by our mutual love, devotion and commitment to our beloved Lord and Master and friend.
Of course there is still much to learn – for us all – but let the focus remain ever upon the good Lord and his perfect plan. He is bringing you and me and all who will, into perfect oneness with it, one step at the time.
Even now you see how your own progress is taking ever greater form and shape. This is because the Lord is bringing you to the place already created for you and you alone, by Papa. Not one step is left to chance, to some haphazard lottery. All is a perfect block by block process of building His unique temple, which is you and which it is His good pleasure to occupy. And this shall be for his Glory and fulfilment of his good purposes in you.
So it is my friend, with all who will receive his good gifts of perfect, eternal life. And each individual temple shall become a building block in the Great Temple, of which the chief cornerstone is well known to you. And the light and the life of the temple shall be the life of the stones themselves, because they are His life, made perfect in myriad forms, all fitting perfectly together, according to the great, original plan by the great Architect. Nothing shall falter; nothing shall fail and we shall all dwell in the House of the Lord forever. Amen.
Holy Communion July 5, 1998
…the real point is that in your heart and soul you have a strong and burning desire for the Kingdom on Earth and that your commitment and loyalty are to me, your Lord, the Way, the Truth and the Life.
Beloved Master, I begin to perceive that the power in the words of this precious service are, because we have been focusing upon them, speaking them, desiring their fulfilment for 30-plus years, beginning to become a solid, living, growing, organic structure in our lives, for your glory, for the Kingdom, for the casting out of all evil, injustice, wrongdoing.
My son, it is of no consequence that there are times when any, or even all, of the living, power-filled words that you speak in this temple-service may not be sharply focused as you speak them. As you know, the real point is that in your heart and soul you have a strong and burning desire for the Kingdom on Earth and that your commitment and loyalty are to me, your Lord, the Way, the Truth and the Life.
It is important because it is I, the empowered, authorised Lord of Heaven and Earth, who am the Living Word by which the fulfilling of these things is being and will be accomplished. It is not dependent upon your efforts; your alignment of desire and commitment simply ensure that you are part of the process and the fulfilment. Your harmonising, by obedience and faithful following of my leading, in trust, ensures that many joyous experiences may be shared by you and by all for whom you pray, whose lives you sincerely commit to my care and transforming and whom you bless with the love so freely and constantly outpoured upon you.
And so I say to you my beloveds, keep on faithfully, rejoicing and having no concern for the outworking. Occupy with those matters entrusted into your care and have no fear or anxiety for the completion of those things which you do in my name. All shall be fulfilled.
The following Diary entries were posted on August 29th 2007.
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Holy Communion July 19, 1998
Have no concern – am I not the Lord of the tempest? I tell you, there is no disturbance over which I am not the Lord and over which I am not able to cast peace and restore equilibrium. Therefore, let your focus be always upon me and not upon the tempest, lest the boisterousness of the waves disturb your trust in me and allow fear to enter into your heart.
Beloved Lord, the events of the last few days have, I believe, been an opportunity for some wondrous forward progress in the untangling of so much karma.* We do not particularly see what has happened at the Earth-life level of awareness but I believe it will come into manifestation over time.
My son, as with all things, FTOC is the essential ingredient for well-being. It is no use worrying over details, like a dog with a bone, but rather, believe and you shall see wonders. Bless those in need of blessing. Love those in need of loving. Pray for those in need of prayer. Commit the outworking of all details to me. Worry about nothing. You believe in God; believe that all things are within His care.
Draw close to me always. Energies not yet harmonised with our pattern of togetherness have created some disturbance but this is unavoidable when there is an opportunity for rescue work. Have no concern – am I not the Lord of the tempest? I tell you, there is no disturbance over which I am not the Lord and over which I am not able to cast peace and restore equilibrium. Therefore, let your focus be always upon me and not upon the tempest, lest the boisterousness of the waves disturb your trust in me and allow fear to enter into your heart.
I love you Lord; I praise you for your Lordship over all things; I thank you for reinstating the focus of our lives.
*This refers to some healing of relationships that had been damaged for many years.
Holy Communion July 26, 1998
…the path is arduous and beset by pitfalls; these are of the enemy. It is my desire to equip all the little ones with night-sights, so that they may see and negotiate all obstacles from and within the darkness, until they reach the glorious Light of Day.
Beloved Lord and Master, I rejoice in your charge over our lives, your guiding, leading and instructing. I thank you Lord, that you have made us aware that our relationship with you and Papa and the Holy Breath (Holy Spirit) is a Partnership.
My son, if our relationship was not a Partnership, what would it be? Do not you want your little ones to grow into a full and equal relationship with you? As Papa's children, this is His desire for you also.
In order for the fallen world to be restored to its rightful position there must be cooperation between Heaven and Heaven's emissaries in enemy territory -- the resistance. Without this the prayers and blessings from Heaven cannot be made manifest in the lives of the lost sheep, the imprisoned, the blind, the seekers after truth.
The energy of life and love and blessing needs transformers for converting to the required level of implementation. The whole Kingdom rescue programme is one of voluntary commitment. There are no press-gangs in Papa's House. All is by equal partnership and all are dependent on the continuing, voluntary commitment of each other volunteer. This is the Freedom of the Kingdom of God. The enemy has no such arrangements. All his servers are prisoners of fear, hatred and ignorance. It is Papa's changeless desire to freely share all the bounty of his Kingdom with all who will freely enter into his joy. Although the path is arduous and beset by pitfalls, these are of the enemy. It is my desire to equip all the little ones with night-sights, so that they may see and negotiate all obstacles from and within the darkness, until they reach the glorious Light of Day.
I love you Lord and I thank you for the freedom that our life with you brings.
The following Diary entries were posted on December 5th 2007.
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Holy Communion August 2, 1998
It is paramount that, come what may, you, and all who would follow me, must hold fast, be utterly one-pointed in your focus, steadfast in your desire to be my disciples.
FTOC are absolute prerequisites of the path of discipleship.
At the beginning Pop* said to me, “Why wasn’t all this made known in the Earth-life? Now I've got my own teeth back I can really get them into it!”
My beloved Lord, I feel as if I am, in terms of spiritual attunement at the moment, rather flat.
My son, it is necessary that you be aware of the need for absolute commitment; that the Way, the narrow path, is not always plain sailing; that the enemy waits by the wayside, always seeking opportunities to work his evil ways. It is not possible that you, or anyone, can be shielded from this reality or you would have no awareness of the real danger of backsliding and falling away. It is paramount that, come what may, you, and all who would follow me, must hold fast, be utterly one-pointed in your focus, steadfast in your desire to be my disciples.
Only by experiencing flat spots can you become aware that effort, FTOC are absolute prerequisites of the path of discipleship. The enemy seeks to trip you, to tip the crown that it is my good pleasure to give you, over your eyes and deceive you into many false ways: of arrogance, complacency, self-satisfaction, pride.
I say to you, keep your sights focused only on me; without this focus, it is inevitable that even the most committed of aspirants will be tripped and fall. For, though you are aware of the presence and the ways of the enemy, only your one-pointed commitment to me enables me to shield and protect you from the destruction that befalls all who do not afford themselves of my protection.
Nevertheless, I say to you also, rejoice, for the great celebration is for all who desire it and the enemy cannot deny such that which is rightfully theirs. All is according to the Great Rescue Plan and cannot fail. Have no fear or concern for any detail.
*My dad, who laid aside his body in November 1997, aged 87. Although I could speak with him while he was here, of spiritual matters in general, he had no particular awareness of the SMCC. After he had left this world it didn’t take him long to turn up for our communion services, warmly invited by Theresa and me.
Holy Communion August 9, 1998
…we place ourselves and all things – other people and their lot, our desire for Papa’s Kingdom of righteousness, our own sickness, weakness, frailty, impotence etc. – in the Lord’s care, knowing that he has power, a GRP that we don’t yet fully understand, to fulfil our redemption, rescue, restoration.
During this Communion, many new, subtle awarenesses and realisations of eternal reality have come in, mostly so close to the edge of my ability to comprehend that they are hard to express in words. In this fallen-world Earth life, we are subject to enemy conditions. We do not desire them; we do not want them; we eschew them. But this is, for the time being, his domain. We volunteered to come into them to be servants/agents of the Lord’s Great Rescue Plan for the enemy’s prisoners/slaves. We have to allow the conditions – sickness and whatever else we have no control over, time and place finiteness, degeneration of the physical etc – to progress to their destiny, which is death and destruction – the antithesis of Papa’s Way or Plan. The difference is that we do not go in head-to-head in contest with this time and place process. Instead we place ourselves and all things – other people and their lot, our desire for Papa’s Kingdom of righteousness, our own sickness, weakness, frailty, impotence etc. – in the Lord’s care, knowing that he has power, a GRP that we don’t yet fully understand, to fulfil our redemption, rescue, restoration. He will fulfil the righteousness, the love, the truth, the Glory and by allowing Him to do this for us, we become part of it. Whatever is our lot – M.E., back trouble, a sense of helplessness – this is our “cup.” If we “drink” it, it's out-working to glorious fulfilment can be accomplished by Papa – not by us; it is the Lord who makes all things new, not we ourselves. We must “drink” it in absolute FTOC, just as Jesus “drank” his “cup” and Papa was able to fulfil in Jesus’ Earth mission the resurrection, leading to his being given all power and authority in Heaven and in Earth. If we are not ready or are unable to drink it, Papa will not force us but we then have to face the alternative – submission to the enemy’s ways and conditions. This is unthinkable and unacceptable because we are Papa’s children, sons of the Kingdom. We know His Ways, His righteousness, eternal, perfect Truth. Anything less is anathema – death and hell.
If our “cup” is difficult, how does it compare with the Master’s cup? And we have him as our Lord, our Saviour, our friend, our constant, unfailing strength.
Beloved Lord and Saviour, thank you for this going forward and for helping me to perceive and to know the love and truth of Papa’s eternal reality.
The following Diary entries were posted on March 5th 2008.
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Holy Communion August 16, 1998
You ask your Heavenly Father for your bread of Earth and of Heaven daily. Are your prayers earnest and sincere? Do you believe He hears you? I assure you it is His good pleasure to provide for you. Every day. Without fail. Have faith in Him; trust Him; learn to be obedient to Him. Without these things He cannot fulfil in you your heart's desire.
Beloved Lord and Saviour, Jesus, my best friend; I feel as if we are going forward across a broad front, that events, with you in command of all, are unfolding. I ask your control, your charge, over all the affairs of our lives, for your power and wisdom to prevail in all that we do.
My beloved son, think not that you are entering a phase when your life is lacking in direction or purpose. Because events are not crashing into your life daily indicates a time of preparation. You do well not to rush into decisions. "If in doubt, do nothing" has been serviceable for your going forward. Observe and Ponder, committing all things to me. Fear not concerning your well-being at all levels. You ask your Heavenly Father for your bread of Earth and of Heaven daily. Are your prayers earnest and sincere? Do you believe He hears you? I assure you it is His good pleasure to provide for you. Every day. Without fail. Have faith in Him; trust Him; learn to be obedient to Him. Without these things He cannot fulfil in you your heart's desire.
And I assure you, your heart's desire – for the Kingdom, truth, righteousness, justice, for your fellows to know and experience the reality of my living being – cannot be fulfilled by your own endeavours. To whom, then, will you turn for strength, courage, empowerment? I and my Father are One. Place your trust for all your needs and all your desires in me and in Papa. Distinction is not necessary. Have no concern regarding the Holy Breath either, for He is ever with you, around and within, bringing to your awareness all that We would have you know, all that in a moment is brought to your awareness; treasures new or old.
Beloved Master, I love you and I thank you for your love, power, protection, wisdom and guidance.
Holy Communion August 23, 1998
My son, as you know, the seed contains the blueprint for the life to emerge and unfold. This is true also with all who come into the Earth-life on a mission. All the details are agreed and stored. Without this is there would be nothing to emerge and unfold, nothing to be fulfilled.
I realised that the “journey” of John from Patmos to Zion – from enslavement-to-the-enemy to the summit of the Hill of the Lord – is a journey that we also are making/have made. We are now broadcasting the message of salvation by the bread and wine of eternal life and truth revealed in Jesus for all who will receive it and come to partake of it by the Light of the Lord that he has shone in our hearts because of his love for us.
Master, beloved Lord and Saviour, I realise that this is what you’re doing for us; that this is and has been your plan all along.
My son, as you know, the seed contains the blueprint for the life to emerge and unfold. This is true also with all who come into the Earth-life on a mission. All the details are agreed and stored. Without this is there would be nothing to emerge and unfold, nothing to be fulfilled. All would be an intolerable, random series of events, blown this way and that by each gust of wind, buffeted and bruised, hurled onto rocks of misfortune. There could be no strengthening of souls, only breaking by random strikes from the enemy's darts. The fulfilling is from within by organised, structured outworking from the Spirit of Truth within each soul who opens to receive it. Souls who opened to receive it before time bring it with them, for they are never left or forsaken. Nothing is left to chance by Papa.
All is well.
The following Diary entries were posted on May28th 2008.
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Holy Communion August 30, 1998
My son, truly the Kingdom comes not from observation but from faith, trust, obedience and commitment (FTOC). If you have but a shred of desire and you remain one-pointed, it will grow in you, faithfully nurtured and tended by the Good Husbandman…
Beloved Lord Jesus, I am beginning to see how all this that we have been faithfully doing and praying for is beginning to unfold into the Earth-life level of our lives.
My son, truly the Kingdom comes not from observation but from faith, trust, obedience and commitment (FTOC). If you have but a shred of desire and you remain one-pointed, it will grow in you, faithfully nurtured and tended by the Good Husbandman, until the tiny seed has put down its roots into the Earth and shoots into the light, for exchange of all that is needed for balanced growth.
Balance is needed for healthy growth — balance of giving as well is receiving. In due course the growth will be sufficient for it to be serviceable for the sheltering, the comforting, nurturing and nourishing of those in the Earth life. Let it be; let it happen. Nothing that you do can make it be so, can hasten its unfolding. Only by desire can it become so.
I do assure you my son, that all that you have faithfully followed and served, you and your beloved Companion of the Way, shall not be to no avail. It has been set in motion for good purpose. Your commitment and your desire are undiminished and I will never leave or forsake you. I do I counsel you to be patient until the details are outworked and you will see many more wondrous signs from Heaven.
All is within my care. Remember, and doubt not, that I have been given all power and authority in Heaven and in Earth. Victory is assured. All the enemy's endeavours are only of time and place and therefore are finite. His cycle must run its course and come to an end.
Holy Communion September 13, 1998
It is not possible for you to forgive* others, only to desire to forgive others. By so desiring, I give you the gift of forgiveness and then you truly have forgiveness. It flows out from you, through you. In Truth, it is not yours to give. All things come of Me and are My free gift to all who will receive freely.
As I knelt to make my dedication I felt Papa above and around me. He held me in the stillness and said, “My son, draw closer to Me. Open yourself to receive My love more.” I realised that we have been led to believe that we must spend so much time in service to others that we don’t allow enough focus on receiving Papa’s love and blessing for ourselves, to receive the wholeness that He longs for us to receive. This is ‘the lie of Satan.’
At the Kingdom prayer, as I spoke the words to Papa “… forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors…” He jumped in and instantly said, “I forgive you!” He was holding in His right hand what looked like a bolt of lightning, about 60 cms long. It was jagged, rather reminiscent of illustrations of a bolt of lightning. It was like pure living gold, radiant and bright as the sun. He swooped His hand down with it and placed it in my spine. It seemed to restore me. I realised that forgiveness is what He longs to give us and it is integral with repentance — turning round and being restored to full, loving, eternally-living relationship with Him. Until we “come to ourselves” and repent — turn around 180° and face Him — how can we receive the forgiveness (and with it the restoration to wholeness and Life) that He longs to give us?
Beloved Papa, truly, wholeness, restoration, life itself, is Your gift of the Spirit. Truly it is the Holy Spirit, the Holy Breath, the wondrous Comforter. I thank you for Your revelation today and joyfully open myself, the door of my life, to receive Your love more. Thank you for giving me Your forgiveness. It is, I now know, the real experience, and does transform our lives from within. I feel freed from the burdens of unforgiveness that have been ebbing and flowing around and within me.
My son, rightfully you say that this is My free gift to all who desire, earnestly, to receive it and hold