Diary for 1994
The following Diary entries were posted on May 17th 2006.
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During the early 1990s I had become interested in William Tyndale, born around 1494 in Gloucestershire. He was the first to translate the Bible into English from the original Greek and Hebrew. He was murdered by the Roman Catholic Church, by papal decree, for doing so (see the article about him, written by a direct descendant of his brother, below).
Our daughters knew of this interest, and as a modern printing of his translation had recently come available, they bought me the ‘Tyndale New Testament’ for Christmas 1993. On Christmas Day, as I removed the wrapping paper and saw what it was, I made a huge, spontaneous, involuntary intake of breath and shuddered as Will (as I came to know him) came close and overshadowed me with his presence. There was great power and commitment and love in his vibration. At our first Communion after that, January 2nd 1994, I was immediately aware of his presence. The exchange between us is shown below as the Diary entry for that date.
Holy Communion January 2, 1994
I see also that your mind and mine do harmonise well, for you also see the importance of language and structure for building new understanding.
Dear William Tyndale, your New Testament translation has got me excited, and the Christmas Day experience has made me think you are close, to help with inspiration on the Living Word. I see from your writing that you are of unquestionable sincerity in your commitment to our beloved Jesus, Spiritual Lord and Master of this planet. If you are able and willing to speak on this in Jesus’ Name and by His authority, I shall be most pleased.
Dear Brian, fellow servant of Jesus Christ, I also perceive your sincerity and commitment and this, dear friend, I assure you, attracts many souls who desire something more than pleasantness. It does also, of course, attract many souls (this Service ritual of Christ commitment and communion) and who are in dark and dreadful places. It is a power base in the Earth-life, wherein those from on high and those in need of uplift who are ready to go forward can be brought together in a place and condition of harmonising of the life energies.
Because this is a good and desirable thing, and is clearly a part of our Lord’s great and wonderful plan for the world, its progress and influence is needful of expansion. This can be accomplished by continuing growth of the Living Word in the fructifying soil of your conscious, dedicated life. I have been asked – and it is my desire also – to be an agent for expansion of the Truth in Scripture in your life, so that this that you do can continue to grow in serviceableness unto the Lord, our beloved Jesus. I see also that your mind and mine do harmonise well, for you also see the importance of language and structure for building new understanding.
So, I hereby make myself available for service in the name and by the authorising of our blessed Jesus Christ, who I do see is much beloved of you as also of me. For I, along with many others, having been drawn by the light and joy of this ritual, have been observing its process for a goodly while.
And I will, while you are engaged in prayerful study and contemplation of the Living Word, if you accept my presence, bring such thoughts and inspiration as are serviceable and appropriate as to illuminate your discernment for the greater understanding. Thus shall all benefit by the going forward of that which we do in Christ’s blessed name.
Dear Will, I welcome you most warmly and enthusiastically into this new and exciting experience and relationship. I thank you humbly for your commitment, and look forward to many uplifting and rewarding revelations that will be serviceable to the Lord and his purpose in our working together. God bless you and reward you richly.
Thank you sir, for your blessing; my reward is rich indeed in fellowship of Christ service, for this is all I desire. I see this is your desire also and do give you my blessing in the name of God our Father, Jesus Christ his beloved Son and also the Holy Spirit, the Comforter.
Holy Communion January 9, 1994
Have no doubt my son, that the reality that you experience is the Kingdom of Heaven… it is the Father’s good pleasure (and mine also) that you should receive the Kingdom.
At the making ready of the bread and wine for consecration I was aware of it being the Master who was doing it – not just in time and place for us but for all mankind – the cosmic bread and wine. He said “Come unto me and I will give you to eat of the choice sweetmeats of my banquet table and to drink of the firstfruits of my vineyard.”
Beloved Jesus, I sense your joy and pleasure in that which we do.
My beloved son, indeed you (all) are great joy to me by this going forward in awareness and commitment. By your faith you have received ever-new understanding of the eternal realities and so you reach the place where the reality takes the place, in your consciousness and your perception, of the symbols.
Have no doubt my son, that the reality that you experience is the Kingdom of Heaven. The enemy is ever close and will continue yet awhile to try to deceive you otherwise. Heed my words to hold fast to that which you have been given, that your crown be not taken from you; nay, rather that it may be embellished with all the jewels for which it has been prepared. In me and by me is this accomplished, for I have overcome the world, and it is the Father’s good pleasure (and mine also) that you should receive the Kingdom. By my overcoming shall also be your overcoming. This is my command, given by the Father, that all the little ones of Earth be lifted up.
All is well. Rejoice, for we go forward.
Holy Communion January 23, 1994
…you have perhaps thought of me more as a pragmatist. But I see also that this is the modus operandi of our Lord Jesus and my respect, admiration, commitment to and love for him are equal to any.
Although the psychic energies have been at a low level and I have not had much awareness of Inner Plane activity, I know the Christ Servers are not permitting this opportunity to be wasted and there will also be drawn new seekers, attracted by the beacon of Light.
Brian, my friend, you have been aware of my presence twice now, this last few days. My desire for the Lord’s perfect plan and wisdom to be outworked in the Earth is unflinching, although you have perhaps thought of me more as a pragmatist. This is of course true, and I am one for getting on with the task at hand and then moving on to whatever next can use some assistance. But I see also that this is the modus operandi of our Lord Jesus, and my respect, admiration, commitment to and love for him are equal to any. Indeed, all who know him – and it is a great and joyful blessing – cannot help but love him with a great and abiding love.
So, I bring to you this greeting of joy and fellowship in his blessed name. Any time you need help with matters to do with health, for yourself or any other soul, send out a prayer of commitment to the Master and think of me. I will be there in a trice, even as you have seen. Never doubt that it is in the Master’s name and by his authority that I come; for my commitment is absolute and total. I have seen your commitment and the desire of your heart and believe me, this conviction is a great influence for the going forward to similar commitment in the hearts and lives of sincere seekers this side of the ‘veil’.
For they can see the radiating energy of your aura, and it attracts souls of a sincere and honourable disposition. In fact many who would not have thought themselves such have discovered it within after coming close in Communion, or at other times, attracted by the light and uplifting aura created by your desire and sincerity. It was ever thus with your beloved godmother Olga years ago and I know the impact she made on you. Was it not her sincerity and commitment which drew you again and again? And so is it with all who desire Truth.
Normally I am a man of few words but a kindred spirit draws openness from even us more circumspect souls. So, God bless you, you band of troops for the Lord. Keep on keeping on, one step at a time. You are greatly loved, blessed and watched over. And I am never more than a cry for help away. In Jesus’ name I am your friend and helper.
This was our friend Jim, the ship’s Scottish doctor (see vignette 22, entitled ‘Jim, ship’s doctor,’ in SYFK).
Holy Communion January 30, 1994
My son, in truth it is not I who set you free but you yourself, by your heart’s desire for the Spirit of Truth… by your commitment you can help me to attract the attention of those who are ready in their heart to open the door to Him.
Heavenly Father, we do this to honour You, to glorify Your beloved Name and that Your purposes may be fulfilled in the children of Earth.
My son, because you have honoured My Name in that which you do, I will proclaim yours in the Kingdom.
Beloved Lord Jesus, I thank you for setting us free from ‘sin and sorrow’.
My son, in truth it is not I who set you free but you, yourself, by your heart’s desire for the Spirit of Truth. Can I set free he who willingly remains manacled to the tawdry conditions of time and place consciousness? I can help by knocking at the door and by entering in to all who open unto me, for I am the Way to the Truth, but he who hears not my knocking or is unwilling to open unto me, him I cannot yet help.
But by your commitment you can help me to attract the attention of those who are ready in their heart to open the door to Him. So can such a one be helped to be loosed from his chains and go forward; and you and I also go forward, with all who join their lives with mine, and God’s purpose can be fulfilled in all the children of Earth.
You see this more and more in the different aspects of your life as your awareness of the Kingdom plan unfolds before you. It is my desire for you to continue to receive the joy of this revelation. As you follow the Way so shall it continue to be. Have no fear, but draw nigh unto me. I am protection and fulfilment for all who will receive me.
Peace, be still; all is well. I am well pleased.
Holy Communion February 6, 1994
It is not easy to find words adequate for moments such as these, for the experience is at a level for which words of Earth-life consciousness have not been developed.
JFK and Aaron are here, also Martin Luther King. The Master is here. All the souls in the Inner Plane sat down cross-legged at the preparing for consecration of the bread and wine. All the little children joined hands in a circle with the Master at the words concerning the branches abiding in the vine, joining their lives with his. Then they all danced with him in a circle, to much applause from the crowds.
Beloved Teacher, this is all such a wondrous experience and I feel your pleasure in it all. I congratulate you, I rejoice in your achievement and I give thanks with all my heart for all that we share and can contribute.
My son, the fulfilment that this brings is reward enough; ‘it sufficeth’. The joy it brings is enough; it fills my heart to see and to share the wonders of the Lord’s doing. It is not easy to find words adequate for moments such as these, for the experience is at a level for which words of Earth-life consciousness have not been developed. Happen this will change as the Kingdom awareness unfolds in the Earth. And between us – you, me, Will, Francis* and all the many wordsmiths of the ages – I am confident such will prevail.
My son, you and your beloveds have travelled a long road and it is also great joy to me, as also our Lord and all your loved ones here, to see you hand in hand going forward through the open door of Christ awareness. Hold fast to that which you have, for within it is fulfilment for you and of your heart’s desire. Be assured that in the circle of Life with the Master all is well and all shall be well. We continue to go forward with purpose and a spring in our stride. Let us rejoice together.
* This refers to Will Tyndale and Francis Bacon, the latter, many believe, was the true author of the works of Shakespeare.
Holy Communion February 27, 1994
It is necessary that such little ones be nurtured with unconditional Love and care and compassion and that they be taught the living Truth, by which Knowledge shall they be led forward; and wisdom shall give them stature; and Love shall make them whole.
Our new friend, Robert H., recently passed over, is here, slightly unsure at first, but once welcomed in Jesus’ name, is receiving the words and spirit of the Service with increasing enthusiasm. He said, “The world should know about this”. MLK welcomed him with an arm around the shoulder and said, “It’s good to have you on board”.
My son, all are worthy of the Love of their Father, for all are His children and could not be His children without first having come to that place. Their unawareness of that status does not negate their being His children. It is only just becoming time for such little ones to awaken to their spiritual heritage. It is necessary that such little ones be nurtured with unconditional Love and care and compassion and that they be taught the living Truth, by which Knowledge shall they be led forward; and wisdom shall give them stature; and Love shall make them whole.
Fear not my son, for I am opening your eyes and ears to these matters one step at a time. Your response is indicative of your readiness, for in reality it is a re-awakening process that many who re-enter the Earth life conditions need to undergo before they can embark upon some particular mission. It is because of the conjunction of the time and place pattern of incarnation. Many never achieve sufficient balance but are nevertheless able to go forward by bringing some act of service into the lives of the children of Earth, that the whole may benefit.
Full balance takes great care, commitment and dedication and is only possible with souls once certain levels of progress have been attained. This is the Kingdom Awareness and shall come eventually to all. It requires giving. Thus shall the Father’s giving to His little ones be received by them.
I have much still to reveal to you my son! Be thou patient. Nothing is hidden that shall not be made known to you.
The following Diary entries were posted on August 9th 2006.
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Holy Communion March 20, 1994
…unconditional Love is the stuff of which the Kingdom is made. It is the most abundant element in creation (manifest and unmanifest) so there is no shortage of it. Take freely of it and fill your heart, soul, life, that it occupy all parts of you, leaving space for no other contrary vibrations.
I had a sense that Edward (Theresa’s dad), newly passed over, was watching (having been welcomed if he so wished). Gradually he warmed to the Service, and certain parts were helpful and had special meaning for his circumstances.
At the offering of the bread he fell to his knees, overcome by the meaningfulness of the occasion and its pertinence for his life. There was a palpable sense of penitence emerging. At the offering of thanks for the bread he collapsed as at the steps leading to a temple and a great emotional release set in, with uncontrollable sobbing. I saw his lips tremble as he began to go down. I sensed it was right to leave him to release his feelings. At the offering of wine for all in need, sorrow, sickness and any adversity, he grasped the chalice as if crazed by thirst, and drank deeply for a long time, taking great gulps and swallowing noisily. At the offering of thanks for the wine which converts tears into joy, death into life, I heard the Teacher say, “We go forward”.
I told Edward (Ted) that John was here and he was amazed, looking around to find him. John stepped forward from behind the altar. He threw his arms around his dad and gave him a great, long, enveloping hug. Ted stood there, his arms at his side, totally unresponsive to John’s embrace. It was clear that Ted had no awareness whatever of John’s presence.
I told Ted that Thelma (Theresa’s mother, who passed away in 1987) was also present and the response was somewhat more reserved. I sensed that Thelma, John and the others were tall and that Ted was small. No doubt he will go forward, rejoicing, in due course. I saw him with John’s arm around him, standing, with John smiling and Ted looking a little unsure but hopeful.
Jesus, my blessed Lord and Master, thank you for the blessedness of this joyous occasion and opportunity to serve the Kingdom purpose. Thank you also for what it teaches me – that forgiveness can and should be unreserved even after a long time, especially where repentance is made.
My son, this is unconditional Love and it is the stuff of which the Kingdom is made. It is the most abundant element in creation (manifest and unmanifest) so there is no shortage of it. Take freely of it and fill your heart, soul, life, that it occupy all parts of you, leaving space for no other contrary vibrations. It shall spontaneously combust the dross of Satan’s harvest and purify all your being, that life abundant shall be yours, and power anew to further perform the Will of the Father shall be yours also. Thus shall the little ones, sullied by the way of the enemy, be transformed. I say unto you, well done, thou good and faithful servant; power of many things shall be yours according to your diligent service, commitment and watching for the return of your Lord.
I say also unto you, love and bless unreservedly, that the Kingdom may flow unrestricted through you into the Earth. Nevertheless, watch and guard, that evildoers have not their way with you. All is well; I am with you and have set my seal and my strong angel to guard your door. Peace be with you.
Holy Communion Easter Sunday, April 3, 1994
…fear not that the Creator Spirit is always in the midst, and those who love Him and aspire toward Him will receive of His guiding and illuminating.
My beloved son, fear not that the Creator Spirit is always in the midst, and those who love Him and aspire toward Him will receive of His guiding and illuminating. It is by Love and commitment that such little ones shall open their hearts to Him and willingly receive. And willingly shall He give, for it is His desire also that all His little ones shall receive the fullness of His treasure – life abundantly.
For this purpose came I into the world – to bring the Good News of the Father’s Kingdom – His treasure – to all His little ones. This message must be brought in accordance with the Laws by which the message – the Kingdom – exists: Eternal Truth. It is not a message of expediency and it cannot be hurried in accordance with the expediency perception of Earth-life-conscious man. The message cannot be received – and will be discarded as meaningless – by such until they go forward to a place where that which they have espoused proves worthless, and more lasting-value ways are sought. For many this will be painful. But I have come to bring healing balm. I counsel you my son, dispense this healing balm to all who will receive it, that they may be comforted.
Beloved Lord, by your Grace and Power I can do it. It is my desire, as you know well, that I may be serviceable in bringing the living reality of Jesus Christ of Nazareth into the hearts and minds of those who know you not.
My son, this desire is already at the beginning of its fulfilment. I rejoice with you in this. It shall continue to prosper according to your desire. All is well. Give these stones to the little one with Love and blessing for her comfort and upliftment and healing.* Peace and joy be with all the world.
*I saw the Master with several small, smooth, white pebbles, about the size of a dice but of a spherical or ovoid shape in his hand. He gave them to me to pass to Theresa. Here is an extract from his message to the church in Pergamos, to which I believe this refers:
He that hath an ear, let him hear what the Spirit saith unto the churches; To him that overcometh will I give to eat of the hidden manna, and will give him a white stone, and in the stone a new name written, which no man knoweth saving he that receiveth it. Rv. 2:17
A white stone was regarded in ancient times as a pledge/token/guarantee of friendship, goodwill, protection and freedom of passage to the recipient everywhere within the sphere of influence of the giver. .
Holy Communion April 17, 1994
Wisdom is acceptance; acceptance of where you are on the path of eternal progress, and willingness to be led forward at the pace which I, your Lord, know to be right for you. Folly is to rush headlong into unknown territory without the lamp of spiritual illumination to guide your steps.
At the consecration the Master said, This is the chalice of my heart. At the partaking he said, Fear not, little one, I will make all things known to you.
Steve and I were both aware of Ted as if he is in a pit but eager to rise up. At the offering he came very close, gripped my forearm with both hands and said, Forgive me, Brian.
Beloved Lord Jesus, I know you are leading us forward, by the Light of your Life, unto Life eternal.
My son, it is not necessary for you to have all knowledge and to understand all things in order to inherit our Father’s Kingdom; rather it is needful for you to desire it, and with humility. Your willingness to receive it ensures it is yours. Your ascent in the pyramid* is assured, but it is not of the Earth-mind understanding. It happens by the drawing Power of the Source. It is of the Life Force, and happens when Love brings you into harmony with that drawing power, which also is Love. I counsel you, leave it at the altar of your heart’s desire and it will continue, most assuredly, to bring joy and fulfilment.
Wisdom is acceptance; acceptance of where you are on the path of eternal progress, and willingness to be led forward at the pace which I, your Lord, know to be right for you. Folly is to rush headlong into unknown territory without the lamp of spiritual illumination to guide your steps.
All is well my son, your commitment of the little one, Betty,** is known to me. Be not concerned, but continue with Love and goodwill and the Father’s good Will shall be accomplished. You do well to have no concern for matters being according to the time and place consciousness; all is fulfilled according to the Eternal Reality.
Let joy be in your heart and life this day and every day. I am with you all.
At the dedication hymn Ted said, ‘God was not at my departing but sorrow and bitterness. I want to pray.’ I said, I can’t help you but Jesus can. He said, sardonically, ‘Who’s he? What's he ever done for me?’ This indicates the degree of his problem. I said, ‘You may think he’s never done anything for you but I can assure you, he has done everything for me.’
It was clear Ted did not understand the Teacher’s blessing, but Steve saw the Teacher rolling up his sleeves and saying, ‘I'll help him’.
*I am no expert in the interpretation of the symbol in stone that is the Great Pyramid of Gizeh but in the broadest terms I believe it denotes the spiritual ascent of man from deepest forgetfulness of who we really are to the full and final awakening to Oneness with the Creator Spirit.
**This is my mother, who passed away three weeks later, after a protracted illness.
Holy Communion April 24, 1994
Let your hearts be set upon your highest desires and the Lord shall accomplish them. Thus shall the Crown of your Glory become complete.
Ted came in early in the Service and was straining forward intently, trying to see what we were experiencing. I said it would benefit him to prayerfully and sincerely contemplate the words, and discernment would gradually come to him.
I saw the Rector’s green, auric light, bright, strong, close at numerous points.
Beloved Rector, friend and stalwart you’re back again,* so close and with such a bright light; I rejoice in your friendship and your presence.
Dear Brian, the purpose and programme of the Lord’s desire is an evolutionary process, growing through different phases of outworking, just as in the plant kingdom. There has been much establishment work in diverse places and this has taken me on active ‘tour of duty’. Much has been accomplished in many spheres of endeavour and this has been necessary to bring us now to this place on the path of progress. Meanwhile, you, my dear and beloved friends of Earth life Christ commitment, also have been busy going forward – the path has been rising rapidly at your feet and this brings joy unbounded to my heart.
Now you are at a point of much expansion of activity. This necessitates a separating of your paths of Earth-life togetherness,** so that the expansion can take place in your respective patterns of unfoldment. This is therefore cause for much joy. Let it be the focus of your attention, that any sorrow at the ‘breaking of the vase’*** may be quickly dimmed into obscurity. You will look back and give thanks to Almighty God for the wondrous works He has wrought. But I say to you, such works cannot be wrought without pure and refined material in which to work them. You, my dear ones are that material. Great is and shall be the rejoicing in Heaven and Earth, for this is possible by your one-pointed commitment and sincerity. By this shall the crooked ways be made straight, the rough places plain, the valleys exalted and the mountains of the Earth be laid low. Let your hearts be set upon your highest desires and the Lord shall accomplish them. Thus shall the Crown of your Glory become complete.
I am your friend in Christ Jesus, abiding eternally with you in joy and thanksgiving.
As I poured the grape juice onto the water in the chalice, in preparation for the consecration, I felt as if this was the Lord pouring his Life and his Love into the life of the children of Earth to blend with it and raise it up, quicken it, from within. I felt his tenderness toward his little ones in this, his act of selfless giving.
*The Rector had not been discernibly present to our conscious awareness for some months and I had been beginning to wonder if he had moved on to other endeavours and we would never have contact with him again. It was a joyous moment to have contact restored.
** Steve was shortly to be married and would then be returning to Canada.
*** This refers to the allegorical story ‘The Shattering of the Vase’ given to Olga Park and recounted at this link: http://www.members.shaw.ca/communion/visions.htm#THE%20PSYCHIC%20VASE%20AND%20ITS%20SHATTERING
The following Diary entries were posted on November 9th 2006.
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Holy Communion May 1, 1994
I see that what you are doing is more valuable than the ways of the world. You are helping me and I want to continue with this.
Ted* has been here from the start, his door bricked up, and he is having difficulty letting go and opening the door. But his seeking and wanting eternal truth and reality is sincere and the words of the Service are having a loosening effect on the mortar of the brickwork. He has committed to coming again and again. The going forward process is underway, slowly but surely.
Dear Edward, there has been a great deal of ill feeling and misunderstanding between us over the years and my attitude to you has been negative, even as I know has yours to me. But you see and hear in the words of this Service that all in the sight of God is positive – building, freeing, making new, making whole. It is my desire above all for my life to be made whole by the attuning with and becoming one with that Love and giving. I know that cannot be unless and until I can expunge all the vestiges of my feelings and attitude toward you from the past. This is my sincere desire, to hold goodwill toward you. You see also how Theresa feels the same. Can we all forgive and be good friends and forget our feelings from the past? This way we can all go forward.
Brian, I know you are a good person, I see your sincerity in what you are doing. It has helped me already and I want to experience much more. It is very satisfying. I know many of my attitudes have been self-centred, but this was actually because I believed what I was doing was right, and I wanted the others to do it because I thought they would benefit by it. You are helping me to see that this was wrong. I am very, very sorry. I feel as if I need your forgiveness and all the others too, for being so unbending. I want us to get on well. I see that what you are doing is more valuable than the ways of the world. You are helping me and I want to continue with this. Please be my friend now.
Edward, I am glad we've had this healing chat. By the Lord’s grace the barriers between us shall evaporate. You are welcome here always.
Thank you; I see how much I need that.
* Ted is Theresa’s dad, who departed this life in March 1994. The full account of his passing, rescue and going forward is in the Vignettes section of SYFK.
Holy Communion May 8, 1994
My son, I am the Way, the Truth and the Life; no man comes to the Father but by me. This is cosmic Law, that the Spiritual Lord of the planet is in charge of the spiritual progress of the children of his world.
Beloved Lord Jesus, I see how wickedness abounds in every opportunity. Thank you Master, for being our strength and protection against the enemy.
My son, I am the Way, the Truth and the Life, no man comes to the Father but by me. This is cosmic Law, that the Spiritual Lord of the planet is in charge of the spiritual progress of the children of his world. Have no fear because the little ones do not understand this, for little children cannot understand the great mysteries. All is by immutable law and their progress is according to the time of readiness. This is activated in their own within by stimuli, from the Source, even as seeds germinate from within according to stimuli, whether it be moisture, warmth and other conditions to which they are attuned. I do assure you, my son, that nothing is chance happening and all is within my power to bring to the Father. Let thine eye be single and you shall see that this is so.
Thelma* speaks: Brian, God bless you. I want to go forward. Life has been hard and I have given way to too many distractions. I see now how what you have been saying is right. I wanted it and responded well to all that you said but something always held me back, causing me to doubt and be uncertain. You have helped me today to see that feeling sorry for myself is not the Way. I want the Kingdom of Heaven more than anything but I feel so unworthy because of self-doubt and my giving way to the temptations of the past. Now, because of all your help and prayers I see that the Lord will help me to go forward and only by his help can I leave all the baggage behind. I am so sorry for so many things I have done but I see that it is a trap which could stop anyone. I know your prayers are a great strength. Bless you all and please give my thanks to Steve and darling Theresa.
*Thelma is Theresa’s mother, who departed this life in August 1987.
Holy Communion May 22, 1994
Now is the time of entering in, and the Angels of my Father’s harvest shall be the winged messengers of His Word that shall gather all who are ready unto Him.
As I prepared the bread and wine for consecration, the Master came eagerly in and overshadowed my actions, saying, ‘This is my Joy’ (to do this for us – all mankind).
At the offering of bread a line of partakers filed past one at a time, taking the bread and moving on, from my right to my left. So many different souls were seeking, the thought occurred to me that we might have to rein in our outgiving but this surely cannot be a Kingdomly answer; assuredly the Lord has a much more serviceable Plan. Someone said. ‘Don’t go out, let them come to you.’
My son, you are beacons of my Light. I counsel you, rush not down every alleyway seeking the halt, the maimed and the blind, but rather, walk the straight and narrow way, letting your light of spiritual at-one-ment so shine before men. Truly I say to you, such as seek the Light and are ready to be awakened shall be drawn to you. Now is the time of entering in and the Angels of my Father’s harvest shall be the winged messengers of His Word that shall gather all unto Him who are ready.
Be thou constant in your commitment and in the prayerful conducting of this ritual of the Kingdom desire and all shall be accomplished. I am well pleased with the going forward. All is according to the eternal Wisdom. Have no fear, but nevertheless guard against the wiles of the enemy.
Be thou as a fortress in the desert places, that dwellers in such places breach not thy defences. Jackals abound, but the Light of eternal truth is impenetrable; see thou to it and let thine eye be single. All is well; joy and peace be with you all my beloveds.
Holy Communion May 29, 1994
…the children of Earth-life consciousness must be raised up to the place where the Kingdom Awareness prevails. It is a gradual process of metamorphosis of mind, and must be one step at a time…
Blessed Lord, I am aware of my own ‘redness of Earth’, which interferes with the blue of Heaven and which prevents me from a whole giving and being a clear channel of your Love.
My son, awareness is all that you need, for this will permit you to exercise your desire for its cleansing and purification, that you may become that clear channel. The cleansing and purification shall take place as part of the natural going forward process. In you is zeal for the rightness of the Kingdom of God to be implanted in the lives of the children of Earth-life consciousness. This is a normal expectation but the children of Earth-life consciousness must be raised up to the place where the Kingdom Awareness prevails. It is a gradual process of metamorphosis of mind, and must be one step at a time, even as has been the case in your life. You are right that this is the red of time and place consciousness trying to overshadow your higher consciousness; hence the conflict of energies which leaves you with a sense of disharmony.
Focus on me, my son; give me the burdens, for I am the Way, the Truth and the Life; the Way by which you come to the Father, and you shall have perfect revelation of eternal truth. This shall bring to you Life abundant. Thereby shall many of my little ones be gathered into the fold. To this end have you been called. Be thou faithful, that thine own joy may be fulfilled.
My ways are ways of gentleness and all my paths are peace. Follow me.
Much has been accomplished by this Service, little ones; I am well pleased. New alignment and harmonising of Life forces has taken place. O be joyful in the Lord!
The following Diary entries were posted on February 7th 2007.
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Holy Communion June 5, 1994
Your desire to shine the Light of eternal reality in the lives of the lost sheep – wandering alone and afraid in the wilderness among ravening wolves – is in itself an anchor for you against the ebb and flow of the raging currents and maelstrom of time and place consciousness.
I have been aware of Betty and Ted (both recently passed away). They both are committed to going forward but do not yet quite know how to go about it. I have been explaining that it is by desire, and that if they earnestly desire they will be led; all they have to do is be willing to be led.
Blessed Jesus, even though the energies are somewhat dissipated today I feel the higher level of efficacy of what we do.
My beloved son, all is well; I rejoice with you that on this anniversary day you go forward anew in your awareness of the Kingdom and of the work which it is your desire and your resolve to undertake. This is a milestone in the Way for the unfolding of that purpose by which you have gone out (i.e. incarnated). Your desire to shine the Light of eternal reality in the lives of the lost sheep – wandering alone and afraid in the wilderness among ravening wolves – is in itself an anchor for you against the ebb and flow of the raging currents and maelstrom of time and place consciousness. At the same time it is the strength of purpose by which your one-pointed focus on the Source of Life and Light remains constant. Continue in this way, my son, and all shall continue to be well and to go forward.
Fear not for the shattering of vases my son,* for I am the Master Potter also, and shall catch up the fragments and use them as embellishment of the new vessel which, even now, turns upon the wheel of Life. Thus shall the new be strengthened by the incorporation of the best fragments as it proves in the fire. Thus do the vessels increase, both in their capacity to hold the new wine of the Kingdom, and also in their splendour, to draw all who will, that they may drink deeper and longer of the wine of my Love.
* This refers to my mother, Betty’s recent passing, and also Steve’s imminent marriage and departure back to Canada, but also see: http://www.members.shaw.ca/communion/visions.htm#THE%20PSYCHIC%20VASE%20AND%20ITS%20SHATTERING
Holy Communion June 12, 1994
It is only by such commitment that the children of Earth – and all life – go forward. For your commitment to me is your commitment to our Heavenly Father.
Beloved Jesus, I affirm my faith in you, my great Love for you, my commitment to you. I acknowledge your spiritual Lordship of this planet and your power in and over the affairs of the children of Earth. I recognise that your power is founded in the Great Universal Force: Love, and that this is the means by which all shall be transformed and made new; new as in the eternal Kingdom of God and His righteousness. So shall the old order of time and place consciousness pass away and the New Order, your blessed Kingdom, be established forever in the awareness, the hearts and the lives of all mankind. In this, and all your glory and all your ways, Lord Jesus, I give thanks and I rejoice.
My beloved son, I receive this commitment. I bless you and assure you that by this commitment you go forward. It is only by such commitment that the children of Earth – and all life – go forward. For your commitment to me is your commitment to our Heavenly Father. Only by such commitment, and by the desire for God’s righteousness in all things can the lives of my little ones be protected from the enemy and guided along the straight and narrow path to eternal reality.
It is commitment and desire which shall keep you going forward in times of difficulty and darkness, when the prince of time and place is close at hand. In this crucial phase in the outworking of the affairs of Earth, the seeds of Satan also come nigh to harvest. Therefore be thou watchful and pray, that the angel of the harvest garner all the good seeds into the storehouse, and that none be cast, with the tares, into the fire of destruction.
Fear not my son, I lead and all is known to me. You say well that you rejoice in me, for all power for redemption is given to me by our Heavenly Father. Therefore go in peace. All your activities are known and blessed by me.
There is much symbolism here and it is worth noting that ‘Satan,’ or the prince of time and place, is actually the upside-down, ego part of our mind that came into operation at the separation, and manifests all the attributes of Earth-life humanity that are not our true, eternal, Kingdomly nature. Also, the ‘fire of destruction’ is not a place into which those of us who have not been ‘saved’ will be cast for all eternity, but simply the cosmic recycling process, such as composting, birth and ‘death’ (reincarnation). This use of poetic imagery is serviceable to our understanding if we are clear that it is not to be taken at its most fundamental, literal meaning. This literal perception by institutionalised religion has been the cause of centuries of fear for the children of Earth. Now is the time of awakening to the higher truths embedded within this type of language usage.
Holy Communion June 26, 1994
My son, it is by your desire, reaching out to the Light of our Father Creator, that I shall draw you higher, so that the constraints of the Earth physical shall be as nothing.
Beloved Master Jesus, I know that our prayers and aspirations can be fulfilled only by drawing close to you and becoming ever more attuned to the Light, Love and all-Knowingness that you are, so that we can gradually rise up to oneness with you and the Father.
My son, it is by your desire, reaching out to the Light of our Father Creator, that I shall draw you higher, so that the constraints of the Earth physical shall be as nothing. This is only possible by at-one-ment of desire with the eternal reality of the Father and His estate – the Kingdom of Heaven. This estate is, as you know, a place of spiritual desire and awareness and is not dependent on being either incarnate or excarnate. Whosoever lives and believes unswervingly in me shall have oneness with this eternal reality and shall become harmonised with the Laws by which the eternal extends, ever becoming more whole, ever more filled with Life, ever more giving for all who are in need, until all are restored to wholeness within it.
Keep on in this way, my son, that the wine of my Love may continue to flow in you and outpour through you into the lives of the little ones who labour under the hand of the enemy. Thus shall they find relief from their fainting. There is much to be accomplished and our work together is just beginning. You have been faithful in the little things that have been entrusted to your care; thus shall greater things now become your charge.
All is well, my son; we go forward in the fabrication of the new vessel which now takes shape, modelled for the service of my purpose in you which now unfolds. Handle it with Love and care while it is in your keeping, and it shall serve you well. Peace, Joy, Love and fellowship anew be with you.
Holy Communion July 3, 1994
…in all relationships there is a purpose: to learn, to grow, to go forward, both on the part of the giver and of the receiver. In truth, both are givers and both are receivers – of opportunity.
Beloved Lord Jesus, I see my mother, Betty, standing afar off, for feelings of shame and unworthiness to come near and partake of the banquet feast which you have prepared for all that love God, our Heavenly Father. Master, I know in my heart that I harbour some spirit of judgement against her as my mother for her imperfect behaviour in her Earthly life, and I feel it is at least partly my attitude toward her which is keeping her back and making her unable to come and take her rightful place in your Kingdom of rejoicing. I know also that this attitude of mine is holding me back in a way that I am unable to fully grasp. Lord and Master, thank you for helping me to search my heart and soul for peace and relinquishment of this which prevents her and me from going forward in your Love.
My son, you have opened a door which was shut in your heart. I counsel you, let that open door be a channel of communication between your soul and hers, that you may express freely and unreservedly the feelings you have been holding back. Let them find open and full expression between you. Let them be faced without reserve; and let all this happen with conscious awareness that all is known and understood by me, that I am with you always and in all things. Let the meeting be on neutral territory, where there is no higher ground and lower ground; for in all relationships there is a purpose: to learn, to grow, to go forward, both on the part of the giver and of the receiver. In truth, both are givers and both are receivers – of opportunity. Let God, your Heavenly Father, be the leveller and let Love furnish the place of your meeting. Thus shall a going forward be accomplished, my son. I rejoice at this opening of a door.
Holy Communion July 24, 1994
…your steadfastness in the Lord has seen me through a hell of doubt and confusion.
Dear Ma (Betty), my heart rejoices at this clearing of the channels between us, that we may both go forward in new awareness and understanding and new service of the Lord Jesus and his Kingdom programme. I also, of course, with all my heart, send Love and blessings for the anniversary day, tomorrow, of your incarnating.
Darling Brian, your steadfastness in the Lord has seen me through a hell of doubt and confusion. You have made possible my going forward into understanding that Jesus, our beloved Lord, is the true and only way to salvation and that this is real, not a lot of church mumbo-jumbo. I am now totally and unwaveringly committed to Jesus and, knowing that there is no difficulty between us now, I will be here as regularly as clockwork.
Valerie* also has cast off her baggage of misunderstanding and has gone forward to one-pointed Christ commitment. Brian, your one-pointedness has helped untold numbers, some you know, including Gramps, or Monty, as you may prefer, God bless him. 'Gogs'* or Florrie, I am still finding out about and will let you know. It is all so wonderful and there is so much to get to know and experience. I have seen the wondrous structure of SMCC and see how organised it is and the power for accomplishment. Truly it is able to achieve the highest desire of anyone. God bless you, darling, and thank you from the bottom of my heart for everything. There is so much to say, so much to tell you – but one step at a time is the byword here!
Peace, joy, blessing be with you and between us. I know there is a special bond of Love between us and this can never be otherwise in spite of any efforts by the enemy.
* Valerie was mother’s best friend in this life. She was heavily involved with various occult activities. Her lack of spiritual discernment in such activities eventually led her into a place of confusion and uncertainty. ‘Gogs’ was Betty’s mother.
The following Diary entries were posted on May 2nd 2007.
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Holy Communion July 31, 1994
The Lord knows our desires, and if we will allow him he will lead us to fulfilment of them according to the Laws of eternal reality; this will be fulfilling rather than frustrating. This all requires discipline and not allowing heart to outrun head; the two have to synchronise.
Dear Peter, thank you for joining Sadie and me yesterday and bringing your Love and the benefit of the wisdom of the eternal consciousness to temper the frustration, anger, eagerness of us living in the time and place consciousness over the wrongdoing and injustice which pervade the lives of the children of Earth.
Dear Dad, you know I love you and Sadie (and Mum and Vee) and my work, it comes as no surprise, is closely associated with Sadie; I have, after all, the privilege of being her big brother but of course there is more to our relationship than simply that, for we go back, as a team, a long way.
The team relationship, like we have, is an ideal arrangement because the one can be where the action is but blind and the other is where the Light is, and by the close teamwork, illumination and sight can be relayed to the sharp end. But the illumination is spiritual illumination, not just any old torchlight, and can only be received by those who desire to be one with the Source of that Light. Only by being at one, attuned with the same wavelength as the Light of Spiritual Wisdom (illumination) can the partnership work to the fulfilment of its potential. As you know, pollution, contamination, ignorance, greed, are conditions which have their origins in the soul, and the soul has no comprehension of intellect. It is, however, susceptible to the illumination of Holy Spirit, which brings enlightenment to those who are ready for such. Those who are not ready for such enlightenment will not willingly comply with intellectual argument for ‘right’ living, whether it be of morality or respect for God’s creation.
True service of God’s purpose – for mankind in general and by each of us individually – can be only fulfilled in harmony with the cosmic, God-given, immutable Laws by which our Father brings creation, balance, harmony, peace. This is the creative, positive, self-governing energy which is fulfilling and accomplishes that to which it is being directed. Only by aligning ourselves with that Law, that PLF, can we accomplish that to which we have been sent, or volunteered, or committed ourselves to undertake for the common good. All the ideals will be dissipated if not subordinate to the Life Source, by which all shall be fulfilled.
I am here to help Sadie; my apprenticeship with the black box* taught me a lot about this and I have been able to put this to good practice since.
The Lord knows our desires and if we will allow him, he will lead us to fulfilment of them according to the Laws of eternal reality; this will be fulfilling rather than frustrating. This all requires discipline and not allowing heart to outrun head; the two have to synchronise.
As I say, I am here to help Sadie, to be her partner. Partners have to work together, complement, and this requires comprehensive communication and consensus. If she speaks with me I am there, if she attunes with me I will help her understand the ground-rules and the way forward. I have absolute confidence in her even as she has absolute confidence in me. That’s a great foundation for teamwork, and she and I are one team within the greater multiplicity of teams working together under the leadership of our beloved Jesus, for all to be accomplished.
Dad, we could go on all day! Peace love and blessings to you all from us all. Chris says everything is under control with Vee!
*Background to this may be found in the diary entries dated Oct. 11th & 18th, Nov. 8th, Dec. 27th 1987, and in various subsequent entries, where it is referred to as a “control box.”
Holy Communion August 7, 1994
…let all the words and meaning of this Service well up from within your own desire for the Kingdom. After all, could our Lord have accomplished his mighty works if he was simply ‘parroting’ that which the Father gave him? You know this is not so.
At the blessing of the bread I said to the Master, ‘Even as in the long ago you blessed and broke the bread…’ and he instantly said, ‘So I do it with you now.’ God be praised!
As I straightened one of the candles the Teacher spoke: ‘You are the coordinator.’ I believe this means that the officiant needs to learn and understand that the desire-energy created by this Service needs to be coordinated, or harmonised, between those of us in the Earth-life ‘department’ of the Kingdom and those in the spirit realm ‘department’ of the Kingdom, so that the energy can be used to the optimum of its potential for healing, uplifting, bringing comfort, new awareness of the Kingdom etc. to all for whom it is offered and who are in need, and that our channels can be clearer conductors of the energy, even as was the case with the Lord Jesus in the long ago.
My friend, your perception becomes ever more acute. It seems that all that is needed is for a spark, or seed, of a new awareness to be dropped into the soil of your thought processes and you instantly provide it with the nurturing conditions for it to grow into a tree of new understanding. As I have said before, it is necessary for you to accept your partnership nature in this which we do together. We are all equal in our desire and commitment and we are all servers of the Great Purpose.
It is for this reason that you have had to go forward to understanding and acceptance of the need to be officiant by letting all the words and meaning of this Service well up from within your own desire for the Kingdom. After all, could our Lord have accomplished his mighty works if he was simply ‘parroting’ that which the Father gave him? You know this is not so. Thus is it necessary also for each of us to give full rein to our own heart’s desire, and to coordinate that with the similar desire of our fellow servers, to the glory of God and the coming of the Kingdom of Heaven upon the Earth quickly. Unto this do we all plight our troth. Peace and joy of Heaven be with you. I am well pleased and delighted with all the progress. There is much still for you to know – be thou faithful.
Holy Communion August 14, 1994
It is vital to understand the eternal reality, and indeed to be one with it, in order to share its joy and bounty with those who hunger and thirst.
Beloved Lord Jesus, I begin to see and experience many new awarenesses, but all that I see makes me aware of how much I do not see, know or understand. I am eager to be more aware but more eager not to fall into the trap of rushing at it, grabbing for it and fabricating the answers in my own psyche.
‘Spoken well young man,’ says an unknown IPS.
My friend, for truly this is what you are; you understand far more than that with which you credit yourself; for more important than psychic sight of every little event and activity, you understand the PLFs. It is they that serve you well in your going forward. This going forward must be one step at a time in order for consolidation of the progress to satisfactorily and comprehensively take place, otherwise he who rushes stumbles and falls, and will not arrive at the destination without many detours and cuts and bruises.
Your willingness to accept that which you do see and not to fabricate that which you do not will stand you in good stead and prevent many tangled diversions. Have I not said all things come to he who waits? This is principle also. However eager you are to go forward more quickly, I know your sense of propriety and rightness, willingness to proceed according to the ‘rules’, will ensure orderly progress because you know it is the best, and ultimately the only way forward.
This is important for you, my friend, because your desire to share my livingness with others will benefit by this. It is vital to understand the eternal reality, and indeed to be one with it, in order to share its joy and bounty with those who hunger and thirst. Remember also that eternal reality is not subject to the pressures and constraints of the time and place consciousness. I rejoice with you, beloved, that we go forward together. All is well. Peace and blessing fill your life. Be of good cheer, for I have overcome the world.
Holy Communion August 21, 1994
It is the bounty of our Father’s Love and wisdom that is what all creation is; only man’s waywardness keeps him from it.
Beloved Teacher: I feel as if this Service and my commitment to it are opening up my senses to the ever-expanding Kingdom of Heaven and all its joy and upliftment. I feel more sensitised to the reality and Love of our beloved Heavenly Father and as if fulfilment, joy, power to achieve all things are a whisker away – actually here with me now but not quite yet solidly tangible.
My friend, I rejoice with you at this emerging experience. All is as you feel it to be. It is the bounty of our Father’s Love and wisdom, for that is what all creation is; only man’s waywardness keeps him from it. Your one-pointed commitment to our beloved Jesus, Spiritual Lord of the planet Earth, brings you – or rather allows Him to bring you – to this joyous place. Commitment is required. You have it. The outcome is inevitable. It is Cosmic Law. You do not have to strive to achieve it of your own will. It will happen. You do not strive for your car to go forward when you have engaged the driving gear – you know it will happen; you expect it to happen because you know all the mechanisms are in place by which it will happen. Rather would you be surprised if it did not happen. So let it be with the going forward of your life unto the Kingdom of Heaven and fulfilment in joy. The mechanisms are in place and you have engaged driving gear – the rest is automatic and the reliability is infallible. So, my friend, relax, sit back and enjoy the view; it is panoramic and multidimensional. And it improves as you progress along the path. All is well, you have been chosen for that which you do, that which lies ahead. All is on schedule and momentum gathers. I am your friend and Teacher. Leave all to me. I embrace you with my Love and will never let you go.
The following Diary entries were posted on August 1st 2007.
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Holy Communion August 28, 1994
…draw with you, by the Light of your desire and commitment, those who are ready to be drawn; souls weary of the wilderness and its paucity of sustenance, although my Father is able even there to provide for all, even though the sightless have no discernment of such provender.
This has been a remarkable Communion; Ted knocked diffidently at the door, pushed it partly open and said he had found a new friend and would it be all right for him to bring him along to the Service. I of course said yes, and Ted entered, closely followed by his new friend, whom I instantly recognised as John. He was wearing plastic spectacle frames with an attached plastic nose, moustache and bushy eyebrows. It was such a comical sight and it was so obvious to me who he was that I nearly burst out laughing, but he put his finger to his mouth in a gesture indicating to me that I should not give the game away. It was clear that Ted had no idea who this new friend really was. John was carrying a small, folded picnic table (miniature banquet feast for two) with a large, tall, white enamel jug of wine. He unfolded the table and set the jug on the ground beside him, inviting Ted to join him at the table, which immediately became filled with good things to eat. Ted saw this and looked at John in astonishment, inquiring how he had done this, but John dismissed the matter as being nothing out of the ordinary.
I also saw the congregation of IPS showering those in need, sorrow, sickness etc (the sick and fainting spirits of Earth-life hungering and thirsting man) with manna and the essence of the grape – the love and succour of our beloved Lord for His little ones. We were in a huge cathedral and the floor became clear, like a window beneath our feet. The IPS were looking down through it to the Earth, which was actually bathed in glorious, heavenly Light.
Beloved Lord Jesus, I see your promises being fulfilled, that I will become more aware of Inner Plane contact, experience, reality and that my great desire – to serve your Kingdom programme – is coming about.
My beloved friend, your commitment has been tried and found true, firmly anchored in me; in this I rejoice greatly. Now is the time for your work, therefore, to begin. You have known for some time that this was drawing near. It is necessary for your peace of mind and well-being that a new phase of operation be approached, or accepted, with equanimity. This is right and proper because it is according to cosmic Law that when you have been tested and found ready, you are ready. Have confidence in that. It is not of the mind or the intellect. It is to do with acceptance that you are a vessel which has been prepared for the Father’s will to be made known, and through which his word can be made manifest. Have I not said it shall be so because I went to prepare for such to be so? Doubt not, for such undermines the fitness of the vessel for that unto which it is called and chosen. Be assured that it is I who make you ready, chasten and purge, that you may be a pure vessel, undefiled by red of Earth. Think you not that I know your needs of Earth, for your peace and well-being? Think you not that I am aware of that in which you have been tried, and having come through satisfactorily, will be repaid an hundredfold? You know that I speak the Father’s word – cosmic, immutable law. Doubt not, but do well in my name even as you already are. You are under my guiding, going out with the word when I send you out, coming into the Holy Sanctuary when I call you in, drawing with you by the Light of your desire and commitment those who are ready to be drawn; souls weary of the wilderness and its paucity of sustenance, although my Father is able even there to provide for all, even though the sightless have no discernment of such provender.
By your commitment are you given sight of the Path, so that you stumble not. Draw nigh unto me at all times and my spirit shall guide and illuminate by day and by night. Have no fear, but trust in me in all things. Continue in this way and all shall be well. Any wrong turnings shall be immediately corrected.
All is well; let no anxiety cloud your aura. You are my tried, trusted and proven friend, in whom I rejoice. Peace and joy fill your heart.
Holy Communion September 18, 1994
You say well when you counsel your fellows, ‘Espouse good, eschew evil,’ for the enemy brings darkness in the guise of sunshine and would deceive all whose heart is not committed to righteousness.
Having missed three weeks of Communion I have felt separated from the fullness of the peace and attunement with Heaven. The awareness of the IPS has been intermittent, but the Master has made it plain previously that it is our desire, not our awareness, which governs or determines where we are.
I saw the IPS preparing a banquet table and the words from the 23rd Psalm came in ‘… thou hast prepared a table before me in the face of mine enemies.’ At the offering the Master said, ‘I have sanctified this place for the outpouring of my Life and my Love.’
Beloved Master Jesus, I gradually come to realise the true Love which you have for the little ones of Earth, how your Love transcends the failings, the ignorance, the inadequacies, the evil and wickedness into whose hands the little ones so easily fall and become prey.
My beloved friend: It is Love which overrules and conquers all. Have no thoughts for vengeance, for the unrighteousness of the world calls for justice. Pray for justice, for this is good and desirable. I counsel you, leave vengeance* to the perfect way of the Father, which is truly His, and your understanding of its apparent complexities is but beginning. Suffice it for you at present to know that all is known, all is understood and all is according to the creative, ever-becoming Word of Life.
Your earnest desire for and commitment to the Kingdom of Heaven is serviceable and creates opportunities for the bringing of little ones onto the path of guidance for their going forward. You say well when you counsel your fellows, ‘Espouse good, eschew evil’, for the enemy brings darkness in the guise of sunshine and would deceive all whose heart is not committed to righteousness. Let your guiding Light be that which is desirable in the sight of God and the eternal reality. Fear not for that which you do not understand, for I am with you, unfailingly, by your commitment to me. We are bound as one, in Love for each other. I will not fail you, my beloved friend. Go thy way in peace and joy and spread Light of Heaven for those blinded by the wicked one.
* In chapter 5 of SYFK it says of the word ‘avenger’ (etymologically linked to ‘vengeance.’) (Lk 18:7-8 And shall not God avenge his own elect, which cry day and night unto him, though he bear long with them? I tell you that he will avenge them speedily):
“The dictionary said ‘Avenge’ meant to inflict retribution, exact satisfaction, on behalf of (person, violated right, etc.) According to my then understanding of Jesus’ ‘job description,’ that seemed to be as apposite as possible. …My perspective on such matters now has grown somewhat and I prefer to see the word and its application in the context of Jesus of Nazareth (or God) as being a person who puts right that which is ‘wrong,’ or is not serviceable to the well-being of all. In a broader perspective it could be described as restoring to balance that which is out of balance (with the perfection of the Creator Spirit’s eternal scheme of things), which helps to remove the rather negative shadow around the word avenge caused by the etymological association of it with revenge”.
The following Diary entries were posted on November 7th 2007.
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Holy Communion October 2, 1994
Think you that I would leave one single soul, a child of my Father, out of the celebration? I assure you that provision has been made that all shall receive an invitation and shall be proffered a garment fitting for the wedding banquet.
Near the beginning of the Service Ted came rushing excitedly up to me, gripped my left sleeve tightly in both hands and said, ‘I’ve found John! I have forgotten about all that nonsense (the past events), I am ready to go forward unreservedly!’ He was twirling and dancing spontaneously with sheer joy and excitement. I was reminded of King David leaping and dancing as the Ark of the Covenant, recovered from the Philistines, was brought back into Jerusalem (2 Samuel: ch. 2). The congregation of IPS clapped and cheered and Betty welcomed him to join her in the congregation. John resumed his customary role as an Inner-Plane sanctuary server but the congregation called three cheers for him and sang, ‘For he is a jolly good fellow,’ causing embarrassed remonstrations from John.
Master Jesus, my beloved Lord, Master and friend, thanks be to you and our Almighty Heavenly Father for the wonders of Heaven, and for the joy of all the company of the Kingdom, and His blessed rescue missions which by your Love, grace and power are able to be effected. I know this is the time of much rescuing and that there are still untold numbers of souls, incarnate and excarnate, who are not aware of the Kingdom reality, but who, if they were, would desire to be one with its joy, fellowship and fulfilment.
My beloved son and friend, fear not, all is well; think you that I would leave one single soul, a child of my Father, out of the celebration? I assure you that provision has been made that all shall receive an invitation and shall be proffered a garment fitting for the wedding banquet. Have no concern for the ways and means by which men of goodwill shall be awakened in time. Rather, pray and commit all such into the loving care of the Holy One, by whom comes all grace, righteousness and wholeness. Ponder all things of the Kingdom in your heart and let wisdom bring silence and humility save where my spirit moves you to speak. Then shall the eternal living word be adequate for each occasion as it arises.
Go in peace and rejoice -- now is the time.
Holy Communion October 9, 1994
…you all have helped me to see… that Jesus is the Way, the Truth and the Life. Forget the baloney of the Earth church doctrine and dogma, which I rejected many years ago for its lack of humility, lack of practising what it preached and on and on.
This has been a Communion filled with joy. Many new realisations and awarenesses have come in at every stage, and for example at the words of Habakkuk someone said, ‘Let all the Earth REJOICE before him,’ instead of the original words ‘…be silent before him.’ I saw the Service structure as a vine that before my eyes sprouted new shoots in all directions and this seems to indicate the value of the structure as the basis for spiritual awakening from which new growth is inevitable. Ted has been transformed and is unreserved in his new-found commitment to the Lord.
Brian, I have been wrong about so much, and this has caused grave misunderstanding, hurt and abuse. I cannot tell you how much I regret all the wrong but John – God bless him – has shown me that the best and the only way to make up for the wrong is to work for good, and the best and only way to do that is by an absolute commitment to Jesus. Well I can tell you that this was something I would have run a mile from before, but you all have helped me to see, by your sincerity, commitment and the love and power of this Communion that Jesus is the Way, the Truth and the Life. Forget the baloney of the Earth church doctrine and dogma, which I rejected many years ago for its lack of humility, lack of practising what it preached and on and on.
I realise I have a great deal to learn but I am now ready to start again from scratch. There’s plenty to do and I want to give my total commitment to making good all the wrong. Thank you all, each of you, for your understanding, your forgiving nature and your acceptance of me in this brotherhood of Christian worship and praise. I am wholeheartedly with it. I want to help all who are lost or stuck or hurting. I know I can do that with your help and that you are willing parties to it. We can work to the greater good as a team. John and Peter have been telling me about teamwork. I am willing to learn all about the ways of the Lord; I see He is the only way. God bless you, Brian, and you, Theresa, for your love and understanding.
Your new friend, Edward. I had to get this off my chest.
Holy Communion October 16, 1994
Have no fear but be assured that all is well. Although ‘the enemy’ is ever close, you are, by your commitment, within the aura of my protection. The enemy has no part in me and you are protected absolutely by your oneness with me.
I am your guide, and lead you in every step. Remain until I shine the lamp of eternal illumination at your feet to make sure and clear the Path before you. Thus shall no distress be rendered unto you. Rejoice; the banquet feast awaits.
At the beginning, Ted stood up and sang the hymn, ‘Alleluia, sing to Jesus…’ what a transformation!
Beloved Jesus, Lord and Master, this transformation of Ted is as great a wonder and joy as any I can recall.
My beloved friend, this is the power of love and commitment to Eternal Truth. It is all encompassing and shall make all things new. It is in your life, one with you, part of you and you are part of it. It is all available to you for good and by it shall be fulfilment of your heart’s desire. What you see and experience is but the beginning for you. It is a gift, given freely. It cannot be abused, only used, in Love and the spirit of goodwill for good works in my name for our Father. All that you ask in my name, believing, our Father will give .
Have no fear but be assured that all is well. Although the enemy is ever close, you are, by your commitment, within the aura of my protection. The enemy has no part in me and you are protected absolutely by your oneness with me. Remember this as each opportunity to go forward arises, my son. You have entered in to the Inner Sanctuary and from therein shall your service be rendered. Go not out, for the invitation is to all to enter in and those who would do so shall receive of you the Living Word* at the entranceway. Let the holy chalice also be offered, for you have seen how the wanderers in the wilderness crave its restoring liquid*.
I am your guide, and lead you in every step. Remain until I shine the lamp of eternal illumination at your feet to make sure and clear the Path before you. Thus shall no distress be rendered unto you. You have trodden the narrow and straight path of service, my son; all is well for you and your beloved Companion of the Way. Rejoice; the banquet feast awaits.
* The ‘Living Word’ is symbolised by the consecrated bread of communion, and represents the Truth of Eternity; the Word of God. The ‘restoring liquid of the consecrated ‘Living Wine’ of communion symbolises the Love of God, which also is the Love of Christ, our holy, eternal Self.
These three entries (above) are included in SYFK, Part Two, Vignette number 19, ‘Ted’s Passing, Rescue and Going Forward’.
The following Diary entry was posted on February 6th 2008
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Holy Communion October 23, 1994
Every need, every concern, every doubt is known to me, in you and in all the sojourners of Earth. Our Father is able to make all things new and provide for all the needs of His little ones. Let not the perspective of the prince of time and place confuse you.
As I knelt at the beginning, the IPS came very close, showering me with their Love and I heard them shout in unison, ‘We Love you Brian.’
Beloved Lord Jesus, my most wonderful friend, thank you for your Love; I cannot find adjectives to adequately describe your most perfect and joyous Love; thank you for the wonder of this continuing revelation.
My son, my friend, my beloved – for you are all these things; you are more than this, you are joy to me for your faithfulness. Thus shall sight be yours; sight of the living, eternal reality. It is not wonder, but reality. It is more wonder that the little ones of Earth continue freely to wander in the dismal places when reality awaits them – indeed is right before them!☺. But I have come that all may have life in full abundance, and the plan for implementation of this, the goodwill of the Father Creator, unfolds before you. Let not anxiety cloud your vision.
Every need, every concern, every doubt is known to me, in you and in all the sojourners of Earth. Our Father is able to make all things new and provide for all the needs of His little ones. Let not the perspective of the prince of time and place confuse you. It matters not whether souls are in one dimension or another, for all is within the realm of the Father and there is no corner in which His Love does not abound. All is for a purpose; His purpose, whether feast or famine, and new awareness takes place by each event, both for those who experience and for those who observe. Let Love be in your heart for all. Always. Only by this can fulfilment of your desires be accomplished. Love is that by which all is accomplished. Love is all.
I love you, Jesus, beloved friend and Lord.
I rejoice in your Love, my son. All is well. Be at peace.
The following Diary entries were posted on April 30th 2008
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Holy Communion November 6, 1994
The life of the vine is in the branch; and if it be, so shall the branch bring forth much fruit, and all shall be to the glory of the Good Husbandman.
As I was getting ready for the Service and began focusing my thoughts on its meaning – a communing between the Christ awareness and the Earth-life consciousness – a time for rejoicing and celebrating; a happy and relaxing, uplifting occasion, the Master Jesus spoke in a loving and light-hearted voice, “Come, break bread with me.” He now adds to this, “and let us celebrate the marriage of the King's son – wherein he shall take unto himself that which was aforetime betrothed unto him and by which shall be fulfilled all which was prophesied of him.”
Lord Jesus, I am aware of your being close at hand in all the array of your many qualities – my close, caring, Loving friend and companion, totally without pretension, and the Cosmic, Spiritual Lord of the planet, radiating Light, power, Eternal Wisdom.
My son, I am all these things; completeness, all adequacy for all. The life of the vine is in the branch; and if it be, so shall the branch bring forth much fruit, and all shall be to the glory of the Good Husbandman.
There is much to reveal to you, my beloveds of this Sanctuary of my peace. This shall be the medium by which the revelation is brought to you. I counsel you, let it be a great and continuing celebration and let the desire of your hearts have free rein within this holy place, that it may grow and be fulfilled in your Earthly lives.
Thank you beloved friend and Lord.
At one point Ted was cheering (along with the rest of the IPS congregation) the Lord; the Master reached over the heads of the others, took Ted’s hand in his and said, “My new friend of old”. He now says, “Welcome to my banquet table”.
At the Our Father I was aware of the Master kneeling at the front of the congregation, behind my left shoulder. This caused me to realise that he wants this Service to be for our going forward in the spiritual growth and that his job is to bring us to the Father. By this Service this happens. At the words Let us commune with Christ I realised that we commune (by this Service) with the Father in fellowship with Jesus, our Lord… “wherefore…we acknowledge Thee, O God…”
As you see, my friend, the going forward continues at every opportunity, says the Teacher.
Steve and Sara (now living in Vancouver) were here (in their soul bodies) enthusiastically ‘Amening’ the blessings.
Holy Communion November 13, 1994
…it is necessary for each child of God to learn that His way is not only better, but that it is the only way. To cave-in to frustration and impatience is to submit to the prince of time and place, ruler of expediency, who would seduce all into believing that solutions of temporal nature suffice. Yet temporal solutions fade away, as will all things within the domain of time and place.
At the offering I prayed for the bread of Life and the wine of Christ Love to be brought to all the millions of souls in dark and hellish places, that they may receive relief and release from the purgatory of their conditions in the great and joyful banquet that is available to all who will.
I felt as if I was standing at the opening of the extendable, mobile entrance, as at the end of a large vacuum hose, from which Light radiated out into the dark places, and all who were attracted by it would be drawn into it, that they might be welcomed with the Love of Heaven, and that they might be made free to rejoice and be made whole.
My beloved son and friend, now do you see why it has been necessary that you go forward one step at a time; that discipline has been necessary. Do you think I am not aware of how frustrating that can be? But it is necessary for each child of God to learn that His way is not only better, but that it is the only way. To cave-in to frustration and impatience is to submit to the prince of time and place, ruler of expediency, who would seduce all into believing that solutions of temporal nature suffice. Yet temporal solutions fade away, as will all things within the domain of time and place.
Man is a being who belongs to and in the eternal awareness, and the only way to that place is by following the eternal path, where that which is right in the sight of our eternal Father is that which we come to learn, desire and practise. First we must desire it above all other things, however pressing and alluring the circumstances of time and expediency conditions might appear.
Then begins the journey by which the children of Earth consciousness return to the path of eternal progress, which is a faint, straight line through the wilderness – almost imperceptible save to those who are ready to take unto themselves the vow of discipline. So is the Kingdom, and thus shall it come to the children of Earth.
The following Diary entry was posted on July 23rd 2008
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Holy Communion November 20, 1994
…the cloak of the Lord’s protection – living in Him and always keeping your heart and life open to His presence – is the whole armour (of God) and no further contortions of mind or body are needful for such protection. The greatest threat of breach to such armour is complacency.
We were suddenly in a huge cavern about 200-300 feet high and disappearing out of sight into the distance in front of us, with many thousands of souls, lost and labouring, breaking rocks with sledge-hammers, piling them up, loading them into wheelbarrows, moving them to another part of the cavern, unloading them into other, new piles. They appeared to be doing this almost in a state of trance, aimlessly engaged and actually achieving nothing. I realised that this symbolised the Earth-life activities of the vast majority of humanity.
The cavern is rough-hewn out of light-coloured, rusty brown rock or stone. I found myself standing on a ledge at the mouth of an opening that was about 8 or 10 feet high and roughly circular, about 30 or 40 feet above the cavern floor, speaking the invitation to Commune with Christ. My speaking was carried by good acoustics (and sincerity) throughout the cavern and those toiling monotonously below looked up, seeing this stranger with arms outstretched, welcoming them to partake of bread and wine of eternal life and truth/wisdom and love, in joyous fellowship with our beloved Lord Jesus. I was aware of a pale, bluish-white light radiating outward into the cavern from behind me, and realised this would be from the mobile entrance – which is somewhat like a flexible, extendible, elevated tunnel that leads passengers into the door of an aircraft – (or ‘Open Door’) to the banquet chamber of the marriage feast to which all are invited.
Some of the souls in the cavern expressed eagerness, dropped their tools and came forward; others showed more hesitation while yet others indicated scepticism and returned to continuing their labours.
At the offering of the bread and wine, my position had moved to a level that appeared to be slightly below that of the main floor area of the cavern, so that those who came forward could look upon the events from a satisfactory vantage point. There was a chasm between their level and mine, preventing their crossing. Onto a huge screen was projected the image of the altar and the proceedings to those who were too far back to be able to look directly upon the scene.
As the offering was made to all ‘who, in need, sorrow, sickness and any adversity, seek Christ help by this Sanctuary’, some of those standing at the edge of the chasm and who clearly were eager to partake, found themselves transported across the chasm as if by an unseen hand, where they were enthusiastically welcomed by the Inner Plane Sanctuary servers (IPS), including Ted who, dressed in formal waiter’s attire, passed energetically among them, offering trays of food and drink and reassuring the newcomers that he, too, was but recently rescued from a dreary place by this same invitation. His enthusiasm for his work was joy and wonder to behold! He especially commended to them the wine because of its restorative and uplifting qualities.
Those left behind were astonished to see their erstwhile colleagues transported across the chasm. Some made as if to launch themselves into space but were fearful of the gap. I explained to them that if they desired to partake of the banquet, they would be transported across the gap by their own desire and need ‘do’ nothing more. Individuals began to suddenly be uplifted and found themselves in the midst of the growing gathering of IPS and newcomers – which was rapidly becoming a great and joyful celebration. Others, still fearful, could not make the transition but were being hailed by their former colleagues who had achieved the transition across the chasm, reassuring them that there was nothing to fear and urging them to join them in this new and better place. So, more kept coming and this in itself helped to reassure those still left behind, so that they were able to gain confidence that desire alone would afford them safe passage.
Before this, at the contemplation of the symbols, as we sang ‘Now, as the perfume of sweet flowers’, I saw about a dozen Angels, flying around the walls of our, lower, part of the cavern, which was at one end and approximately semi-circular, with the rough-hewn rock walls rising-up behind and to the sides of us. As the Angels flew, they were gathering energies from/generated by the Service and fabricating gossamer curtains of living light, which rose up from the floor, covering the cavern walls, higher and higher, as the Angels flew back and forth. They appeared to have wands or sticks in their hands, which seemed to be the points at which the living curtains came into being. It reminded me of the way in which candy floss/cotton candy is created and gathered on a stick, only this was coming from the sticks. At the point at which the curtains came into being – the top end, from where they grew upwards – they were amethyst coloured, but below that they were a milky white.
As I made the offering of the wine for those in need, etc, I felt and heard (but did not see) a man standing right in front of me, very close – only inches away. He said, in an urgent, agitated, confused voice, “I was a stock-broker, I don't know why I should be here!” (in the cavern, breaking rocks). It was clear from his tone of voice that he did not feel he should be reduced to such humble circumstances but was totally powerless to effect his own release from such conditions.
I believe this scene is symbolic of Earth-mind consciousness, where those who have not kept the lamp of their spiritual awareness lit and trimmed, that have been conscious only at the “Mammon” level, metaphorically breaking rocks (or making their ‘living” only at the Adamic-consciousness or ‘red-Earth’ level of awareness), will remain conscious only at that level, including after they have passed over, continuing to go through an endless, monotonous, purposeless round of hacking and hewing, scrabbling and breaking, carrying from here to there and back again.* Such activity will continue from one incarnation through the next and indefinitely until they awaken, from their own within – but with help and encouragement ever present to those who seek it – and begin the journey Home to the joyous eternity of Heaven.
So, whether we are a stockbroker, a builder of skyscrapers, a seller of cars, a medical practitioner, a charity worker, a corporate-giant executive or digger of ditches, until we remember who we really are and why we are really here (and that the ‘outer labels’ we wear are not who we really are) then we will continue the endless round symbolically represented here by the breaking and transporting of rocks. When we begin to remember who we really are, then we can begin to realise that breaking bread – sharing eternal, spiritual aspiration, values and truth – is of inestimably more value to ourself and to our fellows than breaking rocks.
Then will we realise that true forgiveness is not only possible but easy because we will have begun to see that all this is merely an illusion and that therefore none of the events for which we perceived forgiveness was necessary ever occurred. How easy it is to forgive what never happened in the first place! Nevertheless, forgiving enables us to receive the forgiveness that is rightfully ours and the absence of which was holding us back from returning Home to Papa.
The cave dwellers were dressed in animal skins, symbolising a much lower level of spiritual evolution than the ‘clever, the proud and the scornful’ might consider themselves to be, yet as they were transported to the “banquet reception” their attire became as apposite for the occasion.
*But such conditions can be transformed by the love of Jesus and those one-pointedly committed and espoused to him and the service of his Kingdom programme and who live by and for his promise: Behold I make all things new.
At the hymn Creator Spirit by who was word… I saw the Teacher sitting in his ‘chair of office’ behind the Sanctuary table. He was presenting himself as if all was ‘normal’ and outwardly dignified and ‘as befits a being of such exalted status’. But this could not be, nor was it, other than a scarcely veiled attempt at hiding what was all too easy to see – an excitement, bursting forth from within, that he could barely contain and which he really had no desire to contain any longer than this humorous pretence at being seen as reserved and dignified inadequately portrayed. It was altogether an overwhelming, uplifting, exciting and enlightening experience.
I said to the Teacher, “Beloved Teacher, I'm so excited and overjoyed at this, our work for the Kingdom, really getting underway.”
My dear friend Brian, you rightly observe the great excitement that I cannot, nor do I wish to, hide. I do assure you that we go forward apace, with much rescue work. Now is the time of readiness for this progress. I see you perceive that the years of preparation have been necessary in order that your awareness of the reality of the eternal realms of spirit could grow in your Earth-life consciousness. There has been much for you to learn, to assimilate, in order that you could be brought to this place. It has been my joy to oversee your progress. Now do we all rejoice that the ‘serious’ work begins.
I know I do not need to caution you to be constantly on guard against the wiles of the enemy, or to maintain your armour of defence against the darts of destruction. You know that the cloak of the Lord’s protection – living in Him and always keeping your heart and life open to His presence – is the whole armour and that no further contortions of mind or body are needful for such protection. The greatest threat of breach to such armour is complacency. Thus shall the practise of this ritual serve you well in reminding, renewing and restoring you in Christ humility, Love, desire to serve. And thus shall the desire of your heart be fulfilled in joyous fellowship of Heaven. And thus shall there continue to be much rejoicing in Heaven, echoing and reverberating in the ‘caverns’ of Earth, as such become illuminated with the Light of the Kingdom, banishing away the darkness forever.
Peace, Joy and Love be with you all, always.
The following Diary entry was posted on November 26th 2008
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Holy Communion November 27, 1994
…there is no real let or hindrance in the Earth Life to the awareness and understanding of the eternal realities. Indeed, it is the Father’s good pleasure to make known the eternal realities to the children of Earth, without money and without price.
Beloved Lord Jesus, thanks to you, Master and friend, for your wisdom in leading us, not according to our Earth-mind understanding and desires but according to the unfolding pattern of the eternal realities, which are hidden from our Earth-mind consciousness by distorted time and place perspective.
My friend and faithful follower, you rightly say ‘Earth mind consciousness’, for there is no real let or hindrance in the Earth Life to the awareness and understanding of the eternal realities. Indeed, it is the Father’s good pleasure to make known the eternal realities to the children of Earth, that they may have life and have it abundantly – full measure, pressed down, without money and without price.
It is not without condition however: the condition is that man of Earth-life must be willing to receive it. He must hold out his hands to receive this great and wondrous gift of eternal awareness. This is the only condition. When he holds out his hands – in reality, opens his heart, which is whereinto the reality of eternal life will enter and take up abode – that onto which he is holding will fall away and shatter into fragments. Or rather, that is what he fears. Again, in reality, it will vanish away and disappear before his very eyes. It will never reach the ground to be shattered. This is because it is not real. It is not eternal. It will pass away. It has already passed away.
For the reality is even now manifesting before him. He is as yet unsure of what takes place, and fears that his senses deceive him. For that which he was certain was real and his rightful possession is nothing more than a figment of his own time and place making; a dream, an illusion. Heaven and Earth are passing away; the Word of eternal reality has ordained a creation which comes newly to the awareness of the Father’s Earth-life children. For this I say unto you: rejoice and be exceeding glad. Now is all prepared and all ready for consummation. Peace and Joy eternal fill your heart and illumine the darkness of those of Earth-mind ways, for they are little ones, and little ones need teaching.
The following Diary entry was posted on February 11th 2009
Holy Communion December 11, 1994
In your own heart and mind you have been one-pointed and committed, and this is necessary for the manifestation of the reality of the Kingdom to take tangible form, shape, structure within your awareness.
At the few moments’ silent rejoicing at the end of the Kingdom prayer, Ted approached Theresa and expressed his great regret for wrong behaviour toward her during his Earthly life; he stated he was now aware of the Lord’s Love and had gone forward into the Light, and now asked her forgiveness – freely given – and said he could not be at peace without this being ‘got off his chest’.
Beloved Lord Jesus, I feel, experience, an emerging awakening of the structure of the Kingdom in the Earth, almost like the steel framework for a building, upon which will be added all the bits that will complete the structure.
My friend, you observe well, for the analogy is good and fitting. In your own heart and mind you have been one-pointed and committed, and this is necessary for the manifestation of the reality of the Kingdom to take tangible form, shape, structure within your awareness. The reality exists in fully completed form in the etheric realms of the Earth. It is now needful for the same reality to be accomplished in the hearts, minds, lives of the children of Earth life. This must be ’first’ in their hearts, their desire, and grow outwardly from there until it is as solid, as real for them as any and all structures of their Earth-life awareness. Indeed it shall be more real than any such, for those shall pass – even now are passing – away; the new structure, for which I am the ‘main contractor’, shall be – is – of more durable substance, passing all standards and requirements. Herein shall be no fraud, no skimming, but full compliance with the blueprint. Earthquake, fire, tempest and flood shall be of none-effect upon this new structure.
All is well. Be thou faithful and one-pointed in thy sight. All is accomplished. Rejoice.
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